i just want to use your love tonight
For me being in such an amazing mood last week, I'm in such a blah one now...
School is already stressing me out to the max. I'm tired of having to try so hard, why can't it just come naturally to me. I'm sick of studying... all I ever do these days is study study study. Therefore when the weekend comes I just want to drink drink drink and that just sounded something an alcoholic would say.
But in all honesty I don't have it in me this week. I feel like I'm becoming lazier as the days go by and the more I relax the more I don't want to do anything. I need motivation in my life, as if getting into nursing school isn't enough? I just feel like "oh yeah this time I HAVE to get in, they'll definitly accept me." No they fucking won't Lisa, not if you aren't trying. You NEED to try, you HAVE to. Otherwise I'm going nowhere. I have all of these plans in my life, but not even my back up plans are going to work if I don't get my shit together.
I need to read that every time I don't want to study.. But i'm getting tired and I still don't have it in me.
My social life is interfering though.. It's becoming a BAD influence.. Like this week, all I'm thinking about is how on thursday we're having a case race at Gregs house and it's our next door neighbors suprise birthday party.. and on friday, it's Kyle's birthday and they're having a huge party for it. And on Saturday who know's but I know that I'll be in some sort of drunken state. And is it so sad that me and Maggie are looking forward to being so drunk that we want someone to be carrying us around and being "that" girl. I mean honestly, I think it's really funny how we want to be like that because I know it's going to be a good time. But WHYYYY?!! hahha I have serious issues, I really do...
All in all, I need motivation in my life. And I'm going to find it. period.
School is already stressing me out to the max. I'm tired of having to try so hard, why can't it just come naturally to me. I'm sick of studying... all I ever do these days is study study study. Therefore when the weekend comes I just want to drink drink drink and that just sounded something an alcoholic would say.
But in all honesty I don't have it in me this week. I feel like I'm becoming lazier as the days go by and the more I relax the more I don't want to do anything. I need motivation in my life, as if getting into nursing school isn't enough? I just feel like "oh yeah this time I HAVE to get in, they'll definitly accept me." No they fucking won't Lisa, not if you aren't trying. You NEED to try, you HAVE to. Otherwise I'm going nowhere. I have all of these plans in my life, but not even my back up plans are going to work if I don't get my shit together.
I need to read that every time I don't want to study.. But i'm getting tired and I still don't have it in me.
My social life is interfering though.. It's becoming a BAD influence.. Like this week, all I'm thinking about is how on thursday we're having a case race at Gregs house and it's our next door neighbors suprise birthday party.. and on friday, it's Kyle's birthday and they're having a huge party for it. And on Saturday who know's but I know that I'll be in some sort of drunken state. And is it so sad that me and Maggie are looking forward to being so drunk that we want someone to be carrying us around and being "that" girl. I mean honestly, I think it's really funny how we want to be like that because I know it's going to be a good time. But WHYYYY?!! hahha I have serious issues, I really do...
All in all, I need motivation in my life. And I'm going to find it. period.