I can't do anything right
Yeah, sometimes I wish I would and could just kill myself. I'm tired of stressing myself. I know Amina doesn't think I care but I care too fucking much. I wish I could just punch somebody punch something today. It fucking sucks to love somebody but not have that communication that you would like KNOWING it would make things so much better. I have fucking chest pains because I sit here and I think and I think and I think about shit. It just fuckin hurts so bad.
I never do anything right and I know that but I never know what I do wrong until Amina just leaves. I can't fuckin take this shit but I can't not be with her...I know she wants to leave everything behind her and It's gonna hurt when she does that because I know shes gonna leave me before she leaves because shes ready to do that. I just don't know what to do/say anymore. Sometimes I want to quit but I can't and don't want to do that.
I can't even fuckin stay still because I'm perterbed right now..I can't stop moving because it hurts.
It just sucks taht everything seems like it is going great then stupid shit like this happens but I know, its my fault. I need to stop talking before I kill my fucking self...but oh, how it would feel good right now.
Fuck this
I never do anything right and I know that but I never know what I do wrong until Amina just leaves. I can't fuckin take this shit but I can't not be with her...I know she wants to leave everything behind her and It's gonna hurt when she does that because I know shes gonna leave me before she leaves because shes ready to do that. I just don't know what to do/say anymore. Sometimes I want to quit but I can't and don't want to do that.
I can't even fuckin stay still because I'm perterbed right now..I can't stop moving because it hurts.
It just sucks taht everything seems like it is going great then stupid shit like this happens but I know, its my fault. I need to stop talking before I kill my fucking self...but oh, how it would feel good right now.
Fuck this