Mar 01, 2006 18:44
Hello to all those who still read this...
I am Indian and there is no fucking changing that. My culture is mine despite my belief that it should be ours. My parents is theirs despite their efforts to make it ours. There is no blending that. My sister tried and she sort of...well failed. She really did nothing that she wanted for herself. I refuse to do that. I'm sticking with the society I was raised in...its not my fault. Dont get me wrong I am very Indian at heart but in the case of certain things...i've just adapted to a different opinion. Stickin to my views...sounds so easy. I've realized that at every stage of my life i'm going to have a new problem to deal with. At 18 its all about moving out and dating. At 21 its gonna be drinking and dating and of course 'matrimonial proposals'. At 24 i'm sure i'll still be dealing with the ongoing issue of dating and marriage and dating/marrying boys who arent Indian and of course hanging out in the wee hours of the night. At 28...god forbid if i'm not married...well i'll be dealing with that! and if I am married well then it will all depend on whether I end up with an Indian guy or someone else. Indian guy = my problems will cease for the most part. Anyone else = my problems will forever remain. But you know what thats not gonna stop me from marrying an someone who's not Indian...I REALLY DONT CARE. But do you see how there are always going to be conflicts? Always. Its all part of being an Indian girl in today's day and age. I cant just say the hell with it and leave my house. I will have to compromise a little. My parents have given up alot on their end...stuff that seems normal to us is not to them so therefore to them it seems that they're adjusting. I have to in turn to the same thing on my end. Being Indian and living in a different social setting that what is the norm to Indians is hard. Being an Indian girl in that situation is even harder. So on that note i'm gonna go and try to figure some shit out.
-Hiral