the past year
so hi... to no one. haha. im not sure why i decided to go to this site, but i did and it really weird. i know no one ever goes on this site anymore. heck no one even goes on myspace anymore. its all facebook and twitter and of course you tube for brie and i. so why am i writing? i havent updated for over a year and yet once again so much has changed. these updates get further apart and the meanings and stories in them change so much. i cant remember why i would write in this journal so much before. does putting out your feelings like this for every one to see really have a point? all it did was either cause drama or make people feel bad for other and that only lead to pointless pity-ness. so for those who i dont really talk to anymore if you ever see this here is an update.
from the last post, over a year ago, i had just gotten into the fight with ashley k and christina. we all talk today, but it'll always remind different. i truly feel if it wasnt for amy's graduation party, we most likely wouldnt have fixed thing, even though i dont think it was ever fixed. and im not saying this to be a bitch, its just simply how it is. the friendship is no longer there, a year of fighting and not talking can do alot and it did. i would love to blame ashley d on it, but blaming one single person never does work out right huh? i blame it on growing up and really going into the real world. i remember in high school thinking this was it, i was gonna be in the real world, and for the past 4 years i really wasnt.
school changed me, snhu has affected my life in a way i never thought was possible. i look back on the past four years and i can truly say ive changed, and for the better. i was such a little drama queen shit back in the day, and now ive out grown that i laugh. i know i have done right by my life, even though i lost of a great friend ships, i know there is always a reason. people like kenny, tiffany, rob, edwin, cory, scott, amanda they are all people that i have some of the greatest memories with, but i most likely will never see again. maybe at our 5 year high school reunion (which is shockingly next june) i will see them, but it will never be the same, and im not sad.
so much has just changed, in just the past year i have lost my Nana, my parents have separated, i have finished school 100% with a 4 year degree from snhu, i am living with my mom, trying to move out to boston. i never pictured my life like this; being 22 and living with my mom working downtown at salem vintage photography. im trying tho, ever so trying 100%, and maybe if i update in another year life as i know it will change once again, for the better or worst; who knows. no one ever does, and i think thats the true excitement of life. so until i randomly think of this web site and take 5 mins to remember my username and password, i hope for any of you that is reading this (including myself) is happy, safe and good =)
from the last post, over a year ago, i had just gotten into the fight with ashley k and christina. we all talk today, but it'll always remind different. i truly feel if it wasnt for amy's graduation party, we most likely wouldnt have fixed thing, even though i dont think it was ever fixed. and im not saying this to be a bitch, its just simply how it is. the friendship is no longer there, a year of fighting and not talking can do alot and it did. i would love to blame ashley d on it, but blaming one single person never does work out right huh? i blame it on growing up and really going into the real world. i remember in high school thinking this was it, i was gonna be in the real world, and for the past 4 years i really wasnt.
school changed me, snhu has affected my life in a way i never thought was possible. i look back on the past four years and i can truly say ive changed, and for the better. i was such a little drama queen shit back in the day, and now ive out grown that i laugh. i know i have done right by my life, even though i lost of a great friend ships, i know there is always a reason. people like kenny, tiffany, rob, edwin, cory, scott, amanda they are all people that i have some of the greatest memories with, but i most likely will never see again. maybe at our 5 year high school reunion (which is shockingly next june) i will see them, but it will never be the same, and im not sad.
so much has just changed, in just the past year i have lost my Nana, my parents have separated, i have finished school 100% with a 4 year degree from snhu, i am living with my mom, trying to move out to boston. i never pictured my life like this; being 22 and living with my mom working downtown at salem vintage photography. im trying tho, ever so trying 100%, and maybe if i update in another year life as i know it will change once again, for the better or worst; who knows. no one ever does, and i think thats the true excitement of life. so until i randomly think of this web site and take 5 mins to remember my username and password, i hope for any of you that is reading this (including myself) is happy, safe and good =)