Friends...such a complicated idea
I have always thought friends are suppose to be dependable, loyal, trustworthy, honest, there for you, and much more. I always thought it was a two way relationship and not just one side. Why is it so hard to find true friends in the millions of people out there? Why is that I can count the number of real friends I have on one hand? Maybe I'm just not a friend kind of person and should be content with the ones I have. However, I love meeting new people and hanging out with people too much to give up. I suppose I should become more outgoing than I am, and not give a flying fuck what people think of me. I just wish there was a way I could find friends that are actually friends. I do enjoy listening to people when they come to me to have a shoulder to cry on, but I also wish I could be the one who is given a shoulder to cry on...but unfortunately those shoulders are few and far between than the number I give. I also wish friends would stick to what they say and not back out on you every other time you decide to do something. Hmmmm... the idea of friends must be a more complicated thing than I will ever understand.