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Why can I never do one thing right? I mean I do many things all week long to be kind and loving and caring...and I fuck up one thing...and then none of the other shit matters? Who cares if I did this and this and this? I go back on one thing based on stress and mood...and fuck me all my effort to appease and be better goes right down the toilet. I give up...one thing makes it all wrong and that's that. It doesn't matter anymore what I do...and I called to say I would come over later...but not anymore. I'm worried about my tests and I'm worried about this upcoming week...forgive me for doing so. I have to go study just so I can fail the test...