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well today was very bitter-sweet. last night i only slept for maybe an hour at the most cuz i had so much stuff on my mind. i cried all night about many different things, and today my eyes were sore from crying. so when i woke up this morning i had a killer headache, and i felt like i was gonna puke. so i figured it wasnt gonna be a good day at all. so i got ready and tried hard not to fall asleep. when i got to mandarin i talked to allison which cheered me up a bit since i havent seen her in a while. then when i got on the bus i pulled out my hanson cd and was abot to listen to it when caitlyns like " you r gonna listen to hanson? i havent heard them in forever!" so we talked about hanson and which one was our fav when we were 8, gosh those were the good ol days. but ya, then i make ben listen to Umm bop! and he gets it stuck in his head. haha. so ya, he was boppin the whole bus ride to school.
so when i got to school, i saw erika and jaime so i talked with them and gave erika her b-day card/gift, and she showed me this awesome dashboard confessional record that she got as a gift. i talked with sarah and walked around with her for a while b4 spanish and i saw "cheese" in the hall. and i have decided that i dont like that kid anymore. thats final! but ya, spanish class was very...um..interesting. we all learned what hickey was in spanish, and that the girl that gave michael the hickey had a very big mouth. its a good thing my parents dont pay for my education! lol.
english pretty much sucked. its soooo cold in that classroom. so my dad picked me up at like 11:30 to go home and get ready, but he was NOT in a good mood. so when we r in the car, my sister calls and she is running lat and she isnt even ready. so my dad yells at her, then yells at me cuz hes mad at her.
that really sucked. then i almost started balling in the car cuz i really missed my grandpa and cuz i was pissed at my family. my sis calls again askin if we can stop and pick up all this crap and my dad screams at her, and gets kinda scary. sometimes i just wish i could just walk away from my life right now. its just always got me stressed. if i didnt have my friends, i dont know what i would do.
so after alot of yelling and screaming, we get down to st augustine to my grandmas house. we went to the club house to set up for the memorial service. once i saw the pics of my grandpa, i started crying and i couldnt stop. i just miss him so much and it was so hard hearing ppl talk about him with the past tense. it was really hard to go through, but it made me feel better. i had closure i guess.
im so excited for jaime and andrew. i know shes been waiting for this for like a year. congrats jaime!!!
so now im sittin here bored crazy and just so sad. and the weird thing is, there are so many reasons that im sad, but i never talk to anyone about it. i try, but then i say nvm. i really need to work on that cuz i really need to vent. blah. ok i know yall dont wanna hear all this stuff so ill stop.
the DC concert is this fri and i still dont have a ticket. i really hope my mom can run out and get me one. im excited cuz jaimes coming home with me and shes gonna spend the night afterwards. it gonna be loads of fun. :-)
so ya, im prolly goin to the stanton homecoming. lol allison is gonna be my date. this should be very interesting. hah
so when i got to school, i saw erika and jaime so i talked with them and gave erika her b-day card/gift, and she showed me this awesome dashboard confessional record that she got as a gift. i talked with sarah and walked around with her for a while b4 spanish and i saw "cheese" in the hall. and i have decided that i dont like that kid anymore. thats final! but ya, spanish class was very...um..interesting. we all learned what hickey was in spanish, and that the girl that gave michael the hickey had a very big mouth. its a good thing my parents dont pay for my education! lol.
english pretty much sucked. its soooo cold in that classroom. so my dad picked me up at like 11:30 to go home and get ready, but he was NOT in a good mood. so when we r in the car, my sister calls and she is running lat and she isnt even ready. so my dad yells at her, then yells at me cuz hes mad at her.
that really sucked. then i almost started balling in the car cuz i really missed my grandpa and cuz i was pissed at my family. my sis calls again askin if we can stop and pick up all this crap and my dad screams at her, and gets kinda scary. sometimes i just wish i could just walk away from my life right now. its just always got me stressed. if i didnt have my friends, i dont know what i would do.
so after alot of yelling and screaming, we get down to st augustine to my grandmas house. we went to the club house to set up for the memorial service. once i saw the pics of my grandpa, i started crying and i couldnt stop. i just miss him so much and it was so hard hearing ppl talk about him with the past tense. it was really hard to go through, but it made me feel better. i had closure i guess.
im so excited for jaime and andrew. i know shes been waiting for this for like a year. congrats jaime!!!
so now im sittin here bored crazy and just so sad. and the weird thing is, there are so many reasons that im sad, but i never talk to anyone about it. i try, but then i say nvm. i really need to work on that cuz i really need to vent. blah. ok i know yall dont wanna hear all this stuff so ill stop.
the DC concert is this fri and i still dont have a ticket. i really hope my mom can run out and get me one. im excited cuz jaimes coming home with me and shes gonna spend the night afterwards. it gonna be loads of fun. :-)
so ya, im prolly goin to the stanton homecoming. lol allison is gonna be my date. this should be very interesting. hah