I'm still here!!
Well its been a while I guess you could say. I'm getting kinda bad about updating this thing. Well... I only work atleast 35 hours a week, and go to school for about... ohh 35 hours... so yeah. I have no time for anything. But yet, I have time to realize that I still hurt because of what happened. When I think, he always ends up in my thoughts somehow. Just memories come back to me... it hurts. I remember when I saw him at Night of the Bands, it like broke my heart... the realization of what I lost was overwelming. I felt like he looked my way, and didn't even see me. And that probably was what happened. While I could't help but see him. Enough bout that though.... new subject...
So... November is coming around sooo fast. I really don't know what to do. My Alabama friends are all like oh I miss you, I miss you, and when I am there, you guys want to talk to me... but when I'm here, I don't hear from you. Its not when I am there that you guys prove stuff to me, its when I'm gone. Even when I am down there for like a day, Abby calls, and asks me how I am, and keeps up with me. You guys should keep in touch. Dominique doesn't call me, doesn't care, I call Hannah almost everyday, she never answers for calls me back. Kelli never calls me back that much. None of you guys do. And if you really want me to come back, you really need to prove it. Because I have a life up here, and I am not going to leave it if you guys are going to be strangers to me. Got that out... now my thought of the day...
What is love, and how do you know when you have found it?
Why is it that you can't forget somebody, but you know its not love?
Why does it hurt so bad to be away from there, but the thought of leaving here hurts too