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Hmm... today has been a weird day. I don't feel like me. Somethings just don't feel right. I think I try to read people too much. I wish I could tell when people really care. Its a hard reality to face when I realize somethings... I need Jessica. So bad, and I am sooo worried about the girl. She is like my sister, and she always will be. I can't wait to be able to make stupid lil jokes with her again. And then there are all the other people that I look forward to seeing. I can't wait at all. Its really hard to face some other things as well. But they are things I have no right to say anything about. And in the end it could really hurt the one person I care about the most. So it would be better not to say that one. My Mom and I talked today, and it broke my heart. I started to talk about my brother, and tears just started falling. I am doing it again too. I never realized how much he really meant to me. We were never really close, but now I miss him more then I ever imagined. I will be back soon, and that's what I gotta tell myself when I cry. Gosh I feel so weak, and helpless. I set my mind to doing something, and I can't fulfill it right now. And that sucks. Oh well, I shall stop bitching now... go get ready to go eat with my Mom. Later you guys.