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WHY!? why is everyone taking this like a joke? they don't get it do they? they don't see. what can i expect i'm on a computer. i'm a hypocrit. a selfish hypocrit. i told IT "you just want to die so YOU can escape the pain. so you don't have to live in this hell we call earth. but waht about the ones that love you? what about them? they are stuck here with out you!" and here i am. running from the one thing that needs me. IT is dieing adn IT knows it. and i'm the only one taht sees it. how bad IT is. and i can't help it anymore. and i'm running to help myself. to get away form the pain IT has caused me. but what about IT? what does It do when i'm gone? It lives off of me. when i'm said IT lives stronger. when something is taken away or lost IT is happy. but now that i'm gone waht is IT suppse to do?
this is alli can think about. how people are giving ME the cold shoulder for trying to make my life better. how i want to go back to IT. but i can't. IT has helped bring me down. now odn't get me wrong IT is not a bad thing. IT does not mean harm. but IT does not think. It can only live for IT's slef. and i'm running form IT. IT's dieing and i'm running. how could I. if only IT would change. but there again. i'm being selfish. and living in the modern day. thinking that if IT does not change to my likeings i do not liek IT and will run......but i cna't.....but i need to......but IT needs me......but I need to free my self....waht do i do?
this is alli can think about. how people are giving ME the cold shoulder for trying to make my life better. how i want to go back to IT. but i can't. IT has helped bring me down. now odn't get me wrong IT is not a bad thing. IT does not mean harm. but IT does not think. It can only live for IT's slef. and i'm running form IT. IT's dieing and i'm running. how could I. if only IT would change. but there again. i'm being selfish. and living in the modern day. thinking that if IT does not change to my likeings i do not liek IT and will run......but i cna't.....but i need to......but IT needs me......but I need to free my self....waht do i do?