I am nervous

[crazycanadian83]

Nervous about school, and money... It is not the same this year... well, money kinda is, but school isn't... This year, I know more... I've been there, I've been blind, I've been open to being friends with everyone, and I've found that people are shit heads most of the time... You find a few friends that mean something, and you stick with them, and

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[aryna_black]

Life seems to be dishing out a lot of lemons this year. I can't say that I'm a great friend because we hardly ever talk anymore and I won't even make excuses for it or say 'I've been busy.' You and I live on the opposite ends on this great plate floaten on molten lava. I can only offer my condolenses in words that are inputed through a keyboard attached to a computer. However, I do feel for you and you know how you talk about being alone and being scared... that's me all the time.

I go through that feeling everytime school ends and starts again. Yes, it's true that we have our 'friends' and the casual 'aqquiantaces' in which we talk to everyday--perhaps-- or every once in a while. It's taken me a couple of years to realize this...no to accept it but things chnage everyday. I just stay the same--unfortunately or fortunately for me I guess.

Making new friends and or aquaintances has become a daily part of my life since high school ended. I find myself talkin more and more about high school and what it use to be. I miss you, I really do. I'm not sure how close we relly were but I'm sure that we were close enough to maybe connect on some level. I don't know what it could have been and what it still is. I hope I'm not offending you it's not my intention.

Lemons are so aour and one lemon that life has thrown at us are our dead beat dads. I won't even try to argue or justify the idea of your father since I, myself, have not --possibly may never-- accept the idea of my 'sperm donor'. I guess some people aren't meant to be what we want them to be. I'm sure your uncle thought it be nice for you to have those things. Sometimes--I think it's because they have never experienced it or have been an adult way too long-- forget that life and things that--in this case your father or mine-- have affected you (me). They think what they do is for the best, but I personally believe we--the individual--know what is best for us, ourselves.

I'm sorry that I have become a friend who doesn't care anymore. the things is that I still do and I just don't show it. It's one of my short comings. I understand everything that you are saying and i just want to say that no matter what happens...I'm always a mouse click away. Hang in there Cassy.

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[crazycanadian83]

:) Thanks girl... :) You know i still love you... It's just harder to be great great friends miles away, cuz you don't hang out everyday... But, that doesn't mean anything really... The fact that we still talk, means we will never stop! I've moved so many times, and I can't tell you how many friends that screamed we will always be best friends, and I'll keep in touch forever, stopped contacting me... It just happens with some... As far as who we were, you were my best friend back then girly! Don't you know that? We were inseperatable! :) But, now, just because we don't talk everyday, doesn't mean we aren't still good friends...