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Well I dont have anything else to do, so I decided to write a little bit in here... turns out things are harder than I thought they could be, my life is spinning around in circles and I dont know what to do right now. Everything is so overwhelming and sometimes I think I make it out to be, just right now I am having a hard time and I thank everyone that have been supportive. I just have to find strength in myself now and patients which I dont have at all. :( I miss him so much and I need to get myself together, It will be better when we get back and I hope we can be stronger because of it! This is for his future and I think he will be great! God this is so hard for me :(:( all I can do is cry and sleep, I sleep with the phone at night just in case he calls, I never thought I would take this little thing this hard... He said were ganna get through this, but Im scared. I dunno, Im trying to get out again, maybe this weekend I might go out with Taryn or something, and then I gatta go to the next Already Famouses show! So I dunno if anyone can, call me help me through this please..It would mean a lot! Im leaving now... Call or something!