"Life and Death" a journal entry worth reading.
I never knew one phone call could change your life. One minute your happy with not a care in the world. The next your world is turned upside down and you can't see a way to be happy again. It all happened after Christmas. We had just got home from Minnesota and a wonderful Christmas vacation when my mom got a call. She started to cry and I knew what I was going to hear next. I didn't want to hear it. I slowly walked away. It seemed like a dream. Ethan was dead. that whole day I watched movies and cried, trying not to think. I got really sick that day too. When Sunday rolled around I was still sick. It was Ethan's showing and I couldn't even be there for Ella (one of my best friends in the world.) She has already gone through soo much. My whole family stayed down there all day to help them except me. I couldn't be there. I still feel guilty about it. Today is Monday and I stayed home from school. I don't wanna go back. Don't wanna go back to normal and pretend like nothing ever happened, like everything is fine. IT'S NOT! He was only 3! I really hope I am well enough to go to his funeral tomarro and strong enough to be there for Ella. This New Year has not been a good one. Sickness, a death very close to me, and many deaths far away. This new year brought it the deaths of 175,000 people killed by the tsunami in Indonisia, and just as many are expected to die from disease. How could u smile in the face of all this? I guess I just needed to talk about it. I just needed to vent.