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I have only ever been asked out like twice, and the first time was to use me to get back at my sister for something. And now it seems that the second was only to take advantage over me. But I am so confused, because, half of the people I talk to want me to give him a chance, and the other tells me not to go near him. I don't know what to do! I don't want to get hurt, emotionally or physically... which half the people I've talked to who actually know him think that he would. I DON:T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!! both sides I trust, and I see their sides of things, but they are so oppisite I don't know which is better, or well better for me. Before I heard all this bad stuff about him, I thought that he was a nice guy, bit weird but hey who isn't, and actually possibly gay. He asked me out, then the next day someone tells me that she has heard somethings about him, but nothing all that serious, mostlikey rumors, so she wouldn't tell me until I had my own impression of him. The day of our date, some other friends of mine tell me that he scared one of his previous girlfriends while having sex, and that one day he asked my friend out, she said that she was busy, that night her best friend comes back with bruises from her neck to her brest, with puncture marks around her nipple where he had bitten her. She also had told him "No, that hurts, stop". On that note I cancled our date, by claiming that I had a doctor's appt., which apparently I did and actually missed. The first friend that I talked to, I told her the stuff that my second friend told me, and she admitted that the stuff she had heard is that he will take advantage over girls who are drunk. And now tonight a thrid friend told me, that he talked to her and was really disapointed that we couldn't go out on friday, and that I should at least give him a shot because he had enough balls to ask me out in the first place, make it a public date and if I don't feel anything that's fine, that me and him can still be friends. she also advised me that if I did end up dateing him not to make it serious because he's a senior. I just want this to have never happened... or maybe I don't I just don't know I am so confused and really down. .... My Bubble has been POPPED! I just feel so unloved....I know that I should figure out what I want, but I am just so confused right now that I can't, and everything that people are tellling me contradicts eachother. I just want a solid freaking answer! And every time I talk to someone else I get even more confused. WHAT THE FUCK SHOULD I DO!!!!!!!!! I don't even know if I should ask that question.... FUCK! ...
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