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So I really can't help but be kind of upset. People are definitely not who I thought they were. That's not even what upsets me. What upsets me is that despite the fact that I find it hard to trust most people I'm too stupid to just not say anything. Instead of just not letting people get to know me, I share things with them and tell them about my life. That's just stupid on my part. Because then I start to care. And once I care I'm pretty much invested and just along for the ride. People change. Not that difficult a concept for me to grasp. Is a simple warning or goodbye too much to ask for? Or am I just not worth it? I'd really like to know the answer to that. Not like I'm going to get my feelings hurt. Most likely I'll be upset for a little while but I'll get over it. Because in the end, I'd rather know the truth and be hurt than be left with lies.
People talk about wanting a fresh start. Apparently that means they only want to talk to those they really care about. A category that I don't seem to fall into. And that's ok. Really, it is.
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So I really can't help but be kind of upset. People are definitely not who I thought they were. That's not even what upsets me. What upsets me is that despite the fact that I find it hard to trust most people I'm too stupid to just not say anything. Instead of just not letting people get to know me, I share things with them and tell them about my life. That's just stupid on my part. Because then I start to care. And once I care I'm pretty much invested and just along for the ride. People change. Not that difficult a concept for me to grasp. Is a simple warning or goodbye too much to ask for? Or am I just not worth it? I'd really like to know the answer to that. Not like I'm going to get my feelings hurt. Most likely I'll be upset for a little while but I'll get over it. Because in the end, I'd rather know the truth and be hurt than be left with lies.
People talk about wanting a fresh start. Apparently that means they only want to talk to those they really care about. A category that I don't seem to fall into. And that's ok. Really, it is.
Comments are screened so say whatever you want.