here it is everyone.
Alright so i'm not over him. and you know what? i dont think i will ever be, but as long as i keep telling people i am i can pretend like he never happened. But right now, i'm sorry but i'm breaking down. i'm not okay with just being friends with him and i cant read this stupid letter that he gave me another hundred fucking times hopeing that he never meant to give it to me in the first place. i wish just one person would understand how much i cant do this alone.
so everyone here it is, the note that broke it off; from the only boy who has ever broken my heart.
eat your fucking heart out. :::
-- Hey i tried calling you but couldnt get a hold of you. I have been wanting to tell you somehting... I dont feel a connection anymore i feel that we rushed into this too fast i do still care for you, i dont want you to get that impression that i am just forgetting about you. I never see you/ or talk to you too because you are so busy with sports. When we were friends and getting closer we had great conversations and everyhting now we just fight and disagree and we are both pissy all the time to eachother. I hate doing this cause i wanted to tlak over the phone it is just killing me so i resorted to this... I care for you and i wanted to be with for a while i feel we just need to hang out or somehtign a few times cause, you have been everyhting i have asked for it is nothing on your part your an amazing girl and i wouldnt want me and you any other way. I am happy we got and do know eachother now. You are beautiful and you mean a lot to me i care for you no matter what we are and i will never forget what we had and i want to still talk as friends and shit and hopefully get to know each other better then before. So dont take this the wrong way i care for you more thn i can explain as you can see in this message babe. I love you always and forever and you will always have a place in my heart and my life....
Xoxox
.........bullshit. how can you love someone and do this to them... i still care for you too.