in case you were wondering where ive gone...

[crazyathena]

my life seems all about substitution lately. weed for cigs, timmy for ben, friends for cable tv. i wouldn't say it's boring, but im definitely in need of stronger meds. how long until ben finds out how psycho i am? how long until i break his heart or he mine? it makes me sick to think that ben and i could wind up like what happened to me and timmy. makes me start stabbing something, usually myself...fuck.

steve mcqueen, minutes before being shot in the head:
"i was HOME! what happened? WHAT FUCKING HAPPENED???"