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[crazy_x_tweek]

today the radio station 98.1 called the petstore and asked me for my name and told me i had a chance to win a 1000 dollars and if i heard my name said on the radio at a certain time it was a done deal. well i tuned it and didnt win. i could of used a 1000 dollars...that could of been a down payment for a car...oh well...i believe of things happening for a reason and carma and signs and all that ..but maybe it is just bullshit. i wish things would just be given to me but i know it cant be that way. i work over 40 hours a week and it seems like i gain nothing. but oh well nothing i can really do..theres no reason in quitting. i wish i was going to school and had a car but it seems like theres no hope as of now. ill just be patient and wait. me raquelle jeremy and patrick sat down at the petstore afterhours and had a discussion about us 4 gettin a place together. it seems promising..but its hard when i dont have a car to get to work 8 in the moring everyday...but i guess ill just see what happens. ive been hangin out with raquelle like everyday and she is my best friend...we have never got in a fight and i know shes there for me...i would say patrick is one of my best friends too.. im happy i have them in my life. they make me happy. them and kahuna.

yesterday this hott boy came into the petstore asking for a job. if he comes back with an application filled out im gonna talk to jimmy and tell him to hire him :)

seeing raquelle and jeremy bein in love makes me sad and jealous in a way. i envy them. i wish i had that.

snowboarding is what i just want to do everyday...i wish i can go on a trip and ride for like 5 months straight and get the fuck out of this town.

valentines day is comming up. hopefully theres someone to suprise me with something.that would be nice. im getting to old....
illl be 20 this year ..time goes by way too fast.. i question everything.

i hope to much for things..

whats the point?