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grrr i wrote this entry one time before but i hit the wrong button and now i have to do it agian...
so we never happened because of my self esteem?...you should have told me that because i definately would have said give me a little more time...
you asked me back in the day "Why me?" i was afraid of my answer and well i still am, which explains the whole me writing about it as opposed to me actually telling you...
it wasn't because you are beautiful or because you are amazing...you are but thats not the reason at all...
it was because of the way i felt when i was around you...i actually felt happy...i felt good about myself...i felt like i could do anything and you had my back...i started sleeping normally and at consistent times(about 2)and i liked feeling like this...
sorry thats been on my mind for a few months(the appology that i gave you and didnt tell you what i was appologizing for, this is one of the things i was appologizing about...not being brave enough to tell you)
as for the other things going on...you told me i should tell you if you do anything to hurt me...well here goes...
1)i DO NOT like to see you unhappy for any reason...it upsets me to see that you would rather be with somebody who hurts you than to be with me...thats why i dont think chris is good enough for you...because you aren't happy ALL THE TIME...
2)that joke you made about me going to the club with you...and it being the most action i would ever get from you...totally a low blow...i was never into for the action...i actually liked seeing you smile and i liked actually smiling too...
take this entry to heart but i dont mind if you pretend it never happened...
so we never happened because of my self esteem?...you should have told me that because i definately would have said give me a little more time...
you asked me back in the day "Why me?" i was afraid of my answer and well i still am, which explains the whole me writing about it as opposed to me actually telling you...
it wasn't because you are beautiful or because you are amazing...you are but thats not the reason at all...
it was because of the way i felt when i was around you...i actually felt happy...i felt good about myself...i felt like i could do anything and you had my back...i started sleeping normally and at consistent times(about 2)and i liked feeling like this...
sorry thats been on my mind for a few months(the appology that i gave you and didnt tell you what i was appologizing for, this is one of the things i was appologizing about...not being brave enough to tell you)
as for the other things going on...you told me i should tell you if you do anything to hurt me...well here goes...
1)i DO NOT like to see you unhappy for any reason...it upsets me to see that you would rather be with somebody who hurts you than to be with me...thats why i dont think chris is good enough for you...because you aren't happy ALL THE TIME...
2)that joke you made about me going to the club with you...and it being the most action i would ever get from you...totally a low blow...i was never into for the action...i actually liked seeing you smile and i liked actually smiling too...
take this entry to heart but i dont mind if you pretend it never happened...