Control Freak
So I've finally come to the conclusion that I like to be in control most of the time. I don't think that it shows that I like to be in control, but I often find myself being the one who knows whats going on...
take work for example. I couldn't stand working at my new job because I wasn't sure what they wanted and I would just kinda float around until I knew what I needed to do. But the other day it was Justine, Breann, Blossom and myself at the end of the day. And I was tired of the kids just running around and creating chaos, so I took charge. While doing it I felt like a bitch but I gave each person jobs that they needed to do and what area of the room they should stay in. Then I realized it kinda felt good to be the one who was in charge. lol AND the afternoon wasn't as hectic as it commonly is. Since then I've kinda resumed that authority at the end of the day.
then I think about just hanging out with my friends. More so with my old friends I was more in charge, but even now sometimes I take charge. I use to call up everyone to see if they wanted to hang out and then find a mutual place to go and then make the plans. I even think about when it comes to driving. I know that i'm an IDIOT because I continue to insist that I drive home when we go out and now I'm starting to pay for my persistence. But there is something that I don't like about giving up the responsibility. Sounds weird I know, but its just something I"ve been thinking about lately.
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Soooooo I chopped 8 inches off of my hair a last week! It took me a while to get use to how short it was, but I really do like it now.
Things are starting to change around here, starting with my hair! :)
take work for example. I couldn't stand working at my new job because I wasn't sure what they wanted and I would just kinda float around until I knew what I needed to do. But the other day it was Justine, Breann, Blossom and myself at the end of the day. And I was tired of the kids just running around and creating chaos, so I took charge. While doing it I felt like a bitch but I gave each person jobs that they needed to do and what area of the room they should stay in. Then I realized it kinda felt good to be the one who was in charge. lol AND the afternoon wasn't as hectic as it commonly is. Since then I've kinda resumed that authority at the end of the day.
then I think about just hanging out with my friends. More so with my old friends I was more in charge, but even now sometimes I take charge. I use to call up everyone to see if they wanted to hang out and then find a mutual place to go and then make the plans. I even think about when it comes to driving. I know that i'm an IDIOT because I continue to insist that I drive home when we go out and now I'm starting to pay for my persistence. But there is something that I don't like about giving up the responsibility. Sounds weird I know, but its just something I"ve been thinking about lately.
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Soooooo I chopped 8 inches off of my hair a last week! It took me a while to get use to how short it was, but I really do like it now.
Things are starting to change around here, starting with my hair! :)