Maths...
Well, I have tomorrow my pre-final in Maths. I've studied all day and I still need to, but I just can't see number anymore.
I want to scream *screams*!!!
Anyways, lately I've realized there's no such things called 'best friends' or 'good friends' there are just 'friends'. You probably wonder why I write this sh!t, but I truly believe in that, after all I've been through that past month, all the things that happened, made me realize that.
Guys, that I considered as few of my closest friends and that I knew for long time, just left me and 3 of my girlfriends in the middle of nowhere, a hour drive from my hometown and we had to pay 200NIS for a f***ing taxi, that we found by an accident! We went to a party in some place far from cities and we got there with my ex-friends cars, of course, so we got there and everything was nice and pretty, me and another girl, weren't allowed to get in cause we were under 18, we tried everything, but nothing worked, so the guys just decided to stay and they didn't even give a f*** if we had how to get home or if we had enough money for a taxi. And after all that, they didn't even bother to apologize, and now it's 3 weeks after that, and I'm still not talking to them, not that they actually care.
But now I really know to never EVER in my life to trust a guy, beside my dad. Even if that guy will love me or like me, they are all the same.
Beside that, I feel I don't have any real friends, of course that there's the people that will always care for me and will always be there for me and I know exactly who they are, but they're not my best friends.
I don't have 'best friends' anymore. I feel none of them really care, I mean they call me only when they need something from me or when they need to talk, and best friends are also people I can spend alot of time with, without getting bored or pissed. I know it's really sad that I feel that way but what can I do, I've been thinking about that for a long time and I didn't get to that conclusion now, I just had to spill my heart out and of course I have no place else to do that beside here.
It really truly deeply hurt me. But I'm sorry I just can't change the way I feel. I just want to finish high school already and get out to 'real life'.
I'm going back to my 'best friend' for now my Maths book, yay.
Goodbye.
Rach
I want to scream *screams*!!!
Anyways, lately I've realized there's no such things called 'best friends' or 'good friends' there are just 'friends'. You probably wonder why I write this sh!t, but I truly believe in that, after all I've been through that past month, all the things that happened, made me realize that.
Guys, that I considered as few of my closest friends and that I knew for long time, just left me and 3 of my girlfriends in the middle of nowhere, a hour drive from my hometown and we had to pay 200NIS for a f***ing taxi, that we found by an accident! We went to a party in some place far from cities and we got there with my ex-friends cars, of course, so we got there and everything was nice and pretty, me and another girl, weren't allowed to get in cause we were under 18, we tried everything, but nothing worked, so the guys just decided to stay and they didn't even give a f*** if we had how to get home or if we had enough money for a taxi. And after all that, they didn't even bother to apologize, and now it's 3 weeks after that, and I'm still not talking to them, not that they actually care.
But now I really know to never EVER in my life to trust a guy, beside my dad. Even if that guy will love me or like me, they are all the same.
Beside that, I feel I don't have any real friends, of course that there's the people that will always care for me and will always be there for me and I know exactly who they are, but they're not my best friends.
I don't have 'best friends' anymore. I feel none of them really care, I mean they call me only when they need something from me or when they need to talk, and best friends are also people I can spend alot of time with, without getting bored or pissed. I know it's really sad that I feel that way but what can I do, I've been thinking about that for a long time and I didn't get to that conclusion now, I just had to spill my heart out and of course I have no place else to do that beside here.
It really truly deeply hurt me. But I'm sorry I just can't change the way I feel. I just want to finish high school already and get out to 'real life'.
I'm going back to my 'best friend' for now my Maths book, yay.
Goodbye.
Rach