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[crazy_psycholc]

I've come to the startling realization that my mom is possibly the most amazing person i know. She is the best. Not only did she come up tonight to help clean my entire apartment, but she drove an extra four hours to come and watch me play volleyball for ten minutes. It wasn't worth her drive, but it just makes me feel so loved. I was very upset last night after Resi left and i was alone in our apartment that has been filled with nothing but laughter and talking and parties for the past six months. I didn't know what to do...i felt like i was just waiting for Res to walk in the door and say "wooo wooo" but i knew it would never happen. It was a very empty feeling. I'm sad that one of my best friends is gone and it will never be like this again. I've savored every moment here in Hill 2 and yet it's not even close to being enough. But anyway, back to my original story, i was upset and i picked up my phone and just called and cried to my mom, which is an odd thing for me. Usually i just call meagan, but it was like i needed her to know how i was feeling. She did. She said everything perfectly...told me she loved me and understood how hard it was...and that she would leave home right then to come up and be with me. I can't ask for anything more than that. We had a blast today. My last day with Ashley. We lived it up and did what we do best - played volleyball in an outdoor six tourney called "pella daze"...people watched (there were some good ones in Clintonville, let me tell you), made fun ("eleven to seventeen"), slept, drove, jammed out, and enjoyed just being crazy...We went to dinner with our moms who are twins....and we are twins...at Appleby's. It was good. Good for the tummy, good for the heart...all that stuff. I'm proud of myself for making through the entire day without crying, although i came close when i hugged my mom and i'm coming close right now because i just talked to Resi...but i think i'll pull through. Tomorrow is a different story.

So that is all for my last update at Lakeland College...

until home...

RAY