I feel sick.
Under 4 hours of sleep have brought me to the point of zoning completely out which has caused me to run into the ring mandrel 3 times during jewelry, and not hear the teacher call my name causing me to get kicked out of Spanish, although I can not blame him because it was all my fault for reading in class to begin with.
At this point, I’m just trying to calm my nerves, and not think about it. I feel like a genuine idiot and because of some warped sense of pride I don't want to call home. Although I really should just go before I loose myself further.
Having a miniature break down at school isn't something I'm, rather fond of doing.
But I have to honestly admit that it's just a bit frustrating when you are accustomed to hearing people talk about things that aren’t even remotely Spanish nor school appropriate around you that are left perfectly alone, and falling victim to the back draft of a letter of misbehavior left from a sub, when you did all the work and sat silently and watched the movie that day. Although it was a slightly bigger insult when he had to stop and figure out where/who I was. But I digress, it was my fault and I should have been very keen on my behavior after his long winded "OBEY THE SYLLABUS!!AND IF ALL ELSE POSSIBLE, THE FIST, TOO!" speech.
So I am ashamed and mad at myself, and are finding appropriate excuses to de-villianize (I made that word up all by myself! High 5!) myself...
And apparently, I'm not ashamed to admit that happy little fact either.
But as far as that tangent goes, I'm merely reverting back to my "Megan sad! Megan Ignored!" faze, and I have no ground to complain about not knowing anyone's name, because once again, I am in a class where everyone knows my name, but I don't know theirs...
But speaking of class, I have started work on a complex little cookie that I am hoping will come out satisfactory in jewelry. It's a brass and copper mask (with some silver, but I plan on treating it so it appears black) with a long nose like protrusion. May haps I shall put screen caps of the basic design up later when I am at home…but for now, you get nothing...
...*thinks about laughing evilly, but loses all will*...
I bring it up because it's the only thing (besides temporary glances at the novel I am currently reading) that is sustaining my consciousness. Spent half the day trying to figure out how the rivets will hold the mask together (because of its massive size, I can not weld the bloody thing with the torches), a practice I am not accustom to doing. Lucky for me, I'm not important enough to draw attention in my class, and no one got to see me be an idiot when I was measuring my face by wrapping a piece of green yarn around my head. Although I must admit that I am having second thoughts about this pet project, for there will be a lot of intricate forming being done…But once again I must apologize to any one still reading this rubbish, for I'm sure metal working isn't exactly the most stimulating topic of discussion..
But I'm sure my pointless and random jargon I've been writing recently about god knows what is equally inspiring.
....so to kick it up a notch, something my good friend showed me ....it is quite odd...And here it is:
SABRINOW!
http://sabrina.jp/sabrinow2.htm
...also, I grow sick of pink....I think it's time to change ye ol' Journal.
At this point, I’m just trying to calm my nerves, and not think about it. I feel like a genuine idiot and because of some warped sense of pride I don't want to call home. Although I really should just go before I loose myself further.
Having a miniature break down at school isn't something I'm, rather fond of doing.
But I have to honestly admit that it's just a bit frustrating when you are accustomed to hearing people talk about things that aren’t even remotely Spanish nor school appropriate around you that are left perfectly alone, and falling victim to the back draft of a letter of misbehavior left from a sub, when you did all the work and sat silently and watched the movie that day. Although it was a slightly bigger insult when he had to stop and figure out where/who I was. But I digress, it was my fault and I should have been very keen on my behavior after his long winded "OBEY THE SYLLABUS!!AND IF ALL ELSE POSSIBLE, THE FIST, TOO!" speech.
So I am ashamed and mad at myself, and are finding appropriate excuses to de-villianize (I made that word up all by myself! High 5!) myself...
And apparently, I'm not ashamed to admit that happy little fact either.
But as far as that tangent goes, I'm merely reverting back to my "Megan sad! Megan Ignored!" faze, and I have no ground to complain about not knowing anyone's name, because once again, I am in a class where everyone knows my name, but I don't know theirs...
But speaking of class, I have started work on a complex little cookie that I am hoping will come out satisfactory in jewelry. It's a brass and copper mask (with some silver, but I plan on treating it so it appears black) with a long nose like protrusion. May haps I shall put screen caps of the basic design up later when I am at home…but for now, you get nothing...
...*thinks about laughing evilly, but loses all will*...
I bring it up because it's the only thing (besides temporary glances at the novel I am currently reading) that is sustaining my consciousness. Spent half the day trying to figure out how the rivets will hold the mask together (because of its massive size, I can not weld the bloody thing with the torches), a practice I am not accustom to doing. Lucky for me, I'm not important enough to draw attention in my class, and no one got to see me be an idiot when I was measuring my face by wrapping a piece of green yarn around my head. Although I must admit that I am having second thoughts about this pet project, for there will be a lot of intricate forming being done…But once again I must apologize to any one still reading this rubbish, for I'm sure metal working isn't exactly the most stimulating topic of discussion..
But I'm sure my pointless and random jargon I've been writing recently about god knows what is equally inspiring.
....so to kick it up a notch, something my good friend showed me ....it is quite odd...And here it is:
SABRINOW!
http://sabrina.jp/sabrinow2.htm
...also, I grow sick of pink....I think it's time to change ye ol' Journal.