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i want to come home and i haven't even left yet. whenever i feel like leaving i get that nervous queasy feeling, followed by a mental change of subject.
today was one of those hard-to-pinpoint-what-went-wrong-but-still-undeniably-depressing days. i don't even know. i think i expect too much and i get upset when its not my ideal situation.
i didn't get to say goodbye to mr. stratten. i should have done it earlier, but being my idealistic self, i thought i'd push it back to the last possible minute, because saying goodbye anytime before that is cheating. but saying goodbye anytime after the last possible minute can't really happen, so that's the end of that.
i really need to get some sleep. i really need to find out what's bothering me.
i'm leaving tomorrow and i'm dissatisfied. which is the worst way to leave.
its like in history last class: ms. truesdell turns off apollo 13 right when they abandoned the moon landing and started trying to get home, and they're all freezing and there's no computer and the engine's dead. you can't do stuff like that. its goddamn annoying. you just want them to get home. nothing can progress during that stupid suspenseful pause after a cliffhanger.
today was one of those hard-to-pinpoint-what-went-wrong-but-still-undeniably-depressing days. i don't even know. i think i expect too much and i get upset when its not my ideal situation.
i didn't get to say goodbye to mr. stratten. i should have done it earlier, but being my idealistic self, i thought i'd push it back to the last possible minute, because saying goodbye anytime before that is cheating. but saying goodbye anytime after the last possible minute can't really happen, so that's the end of that.
i really need to get some sleep. i really need to find out what's bothering me.
i'm leaving tomorrow and i'm dissatisfied. which is the worst way to leave.
its like in history last class: ms. truesdell turns off apollo 13 right when they abandoned the moon landing and started trying to get home, and they're all freezing and there's no computer and the engine's dead. you can't do stuff like that. its goddamn annoying. you just want them to get home. nothing can progress during that stupid suspenseful pause after a cliffhanger.