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[crazy_irish87]

surprisingly, since my last update, a great number of things have changed... actually most of those changes occurred on the day i updated... i no longer drink and im very proud of that fact.. dont ask why, just dont pressure me into drinking.. i will be designated driver for anyone who needs it... i would just tell you to not drink in general but i dont want to go into a rant. also, i got all my senior pics done so now all i have to do is order them and soon enough, i will be back in school finishing up high school! one of my only worries is about my applications.. there is a part that asks for what i am interested in becoming.. i dont really know that but not many people do.. so im going to write undecided and see where life takes me.. my number 1 school is gettysburg and i would absolutely love if i could get a full ride... or most of it paid. im excited to start the next part of my life. true, its scary to think that i will gain more independence and have to make some tough decisions but whoever said life was easy? as long as i have my friends and family behind me, i think ill be ok. another change is that i met someone.. i dont know what exactly he and i are but he is a great friend and a wonderful guy... he was there for me when i really really needed someone and he did that without even knowing me... sometimes people come into your life and deep down you know that if they hadnt, things would be very different.. and i definitely know that... do i love him? well love is a strong word and i still dont know him well enough... but do i think he is worth getting to know? yes... again, i want to see where life takes me. i sound so philosophical today and thats because this week was a time for me to reflect.. on tuesday i had to go see my dad because something bad was happening in my mouth.. i was really scared. he didnt know what was wrong and he seemed worried... he gave me two possible options, it was either an absess that formed from a severe trauma to my mouth or it was a cyst... and that means it would have come from my sinus cavity or my brain.. so i was not exactly happy with either option.. i definitely didnt want it to be a cyst.. that would have been an indication of cancer and thats not cool... so i went for a second opinion yesterday and he agreed with my dad about the absess and the trauma.. my 2 teeth are dead and basically there is nerve damage inside the teeth... if they didnt catch this now.. i probably would have a whole mouth full of dead teeth... so today im scheduled for 2 root canals back to back :/ and if all goes well i wont need the surgery.. if my mouth decides to be stupid, i will need reconstructive endo surgery (which mean they go in through my upper gums and remake my bone structure in my teeth) thats not cool either... so hopefully i will be all better before school starts and this can all just be a bad week... but next time you want to realize how precious and fragile life is... try being told that you might have cancer... or worse, they dont know whats wrong and there might not be a solution. i must have a guardian angel... and thank god for that.

sorry for the philosophy lesson.. enjoy your day and be thankful everyday that your here :)