Mar 28, 2006 09:09
I found something out yesterday thats not so happy.
My dog has been missing for about 3 days.
Matt was driving on the highway and found him.
He got hit by a car.
How many dogs is that? How many more will we go through?
I'm sick of bad things, I'm sick of unhappiness.
I need some good in my life.
Alisha came over and sat with me.
I kept tearing up all night.
I never realized how much that dog meant to me till it was too late.
That seems to be the case these days.
I'm always too late.
I have to work from 11:45-3:45 today.
After that I might take a nap unless something comes up.
Which I doubt it.
Later on Alisha wanted to go shopping.
I have no money right now and that is not good.
I am getting a massage on thursday, I hope it will cheer me up.
I want to hang out with some people I haven't seen in a while.
It's not going to happen though b/c they have moved on.
I am out of so many peoples lives that mean the world to me.
This sucks.
Why did I mess my life up.
Just not in a great mood today.
Not much else to say.
I wrote a poem about "us" this morning.
I think I'm going to throw it away.
It's pointless now to wish and dream, when they never come true.
I'm done with hopes and dreams.