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ok, so i think i am in great need of a friend! john just called and he might be moving to oregon thursday, i dont get back from LA till sunday.... but thats not the point, his mom found out he came back into town for a couple days for chelsea's doctors appointment, and because he didnt go hom, his mom is hell pissed, he has 2 choices, 1 to go home and the get beat, or 2 to move with chelsea...
he had to go and ask me what i thought he should do... of course, i want to be selfish and tell him that he shouldnt go and that he should stay. but all i can say to him is that even though i dont want him to move, i think he should. it would be better for him, to get away from his mom and her nasty bf.
god, i love him so much, i dont know what i am going to do if he moves. honestly, he is my last motivation... he is my last true friend. now dont get me wrong, i have many friends, and i love them all dearly. but i am no longer close with any of them. the only person i feel like i know is john.
when he left br i lost most of my motivation to come to school. i didnt see the point anymore. i know that sounds really stupid, but thats the way it was. and so when i transfered to sf, i was so happy to feel motivated.i even got into extra school activities. who woulda thunk...
and now, john might be leaving me yet again. we have had a hard relationship. we have been through so much, and still ended up back together. i just dont if this will be something that we can work through... even though i love him with all of my heart and more, how can i do my best when the best part of me is a thousand miles away. i want to be by his side, not only figuritively, but physically.
ok, i think i am getting far too depressed thinking about all of this.. at least i can get some of my thoughts out on here since i have nobody to talk to....
is there such a thing as loving too much?
he had to go and ask me what i thought he should do... of course, i want to be selfish and tell him that he shouldnt go and that he should stay. but all i can say to him is that even though i dont want him to move, i think he should. it would be better for him, to get away from his mom and her nasty bf.
god, i love him so much, i dont know what i am going to do if he moves. honestly, he is my last motivation... he is my last true friend. now dont get me wrong, i have many friends, and i love them all dearly. but i am no longer close with any of them. the only person i feel like i know is john.
when he left br i lost most of my motivation to come to school. i didnt see the point anymore. i know that sounds really stupid, but thats the way it was. and so when i transfered to sf, i was so happy to feel motivated.i even got into extra school activities. who woulda thunk...
and now, john might be leaving me yet again. we have had a hard relationship. we have been through so much, and still ended up back together. i just dont if this will be something that we can work through... even though i love him with all of my heart and more, how can i do my best when the best part of me is a thousand miles away. i want to be by his side, not only figuritively, but physically.
ok, i think i am getting far too depressed thinking about all of this.. at least i can get some of my thoughts out on here since i have nobody to talk to....
is there such a thing as loving too much?