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ok, so i failed my drivers test on the 8th. no bueno. evidenly, i almost merged into a car. :) anyhoo. i take my next test on the 10th of february, hopefully i will pass. a whole shitload of crap has happened lately. one of friends has been through a lot, including some stuff that has caused me to lose a lot of trust in her. now my john doesnt want me hanging out with tyler, which kinda sucks cuz tyler can be cool if he isnt lighting my cat on fire. john hasnt talked to me since we dropped him off yesterday, and he ran off to chelseas today. he is probably really pissed and depressed but he hasnt called me at all. that makes me sad. i wish i could call him, but his mom has his cell. no bueno. yes and valentines day was cool, i got to hang out with john and i gave him the cool lil card i made with the poem i wrote. but he didnt say anything about it so i dont know if he liked it or not. i think i might just post it here, along with the one i read to him a while ago...
for valentines day, i wrote-
Time stopped, nothing moved
my mind spun and swirled
things took on new shapes
with my eyes glazed like pearls
My heart didnt just skip a beat
but jumped a million
and rapped against my chest
wanting to escape and run
so many emotions took over
first came confusion and wonder
and as joy and harmony followed
so many countless things to number
all these things i never felt
all these things i never knew
they all became a chain reaction
just when you said "i love you"
a while back i read him this one-
The moon shines down
on a younge girl
she wanders in the forest
like she is lost in the world
she runs with no direction
and no certain hope
she cries with no relief
and no way to cope
she is loosing her strength
and will to survive
she gasps for air
with a slowing stride
as she sits by a tree
to rest her eyes
she dreams of so called feiends
and neverending lies
she feels so alone
and so out of place
she wants so bad to be loved
and to see a kind face
she dreams of a day
that is filled with light
she dreams of joy
and sweet delight
she wakes to a soft touch
pressing her cheek
she opens her eyes
and tears start to leak
not tears of pain
but tears of happiness
for she has finally found love
in all of this mess
now she is free
from everything cruel
because you were there
my dreams have come true
yes, so there they are...
anyhoo. we have a four day weekend. so we had friday off and we have tomorrow off too. score score! i spent friday night camping with john valerie and brad at the top of joesephs driveway, joe would have joined us, but his mom wouldnt let him, but he came up at like 7:30 and woke us all up, then got in valeries sleeping back, lol. it was good. we, more like I, took down the tent and rolled up the sleeping bags before the rain started. anita, joes mom, made us pizza before we left. then we went to nick and nates to pick up anthony and drop off brad. then we went to penn valley to chelsea's house so john could do some stuff. then his mom showed up there, god i dislike that woman! so after that we went to the penn valley park, and then we went to johns cuz he had to go home. so me val joe and anthony went to my house and hung out there for a while. then joe and anthony had to leave. it was a good day. except the whole john not calling me that night or today. so today i did chores, tomorrow i will do chores, and if im lucky, somebody will rescue me from boredum tomorrow night!
for valentines day, i wrote-
Time stopped, nothing moved
my mind spun and swirled
things took on new shapes
with my eyes glazed like pearls
My heart didnt just skip a beat
but jumped a million
and rapped against my chest
wanting to escape and run
so many emotions took over
first came confusion and wonder
and as joy and harmony followed
so many countless things to number
all these things i never felt
all these things i never knew
they all became a chain reaction
just when you said "i love you"
a while back i read him this one-
The moon shines down
on a younge girl
she wanders in the forest
like she is lost in the world
she runs with no direction
and no certain hope
she cries with no relief
and no way to cope
she is loosing her strength
and will to survive
she gasps for air
with a slowing stride
as she sits by a tree
to rest her eyes
she dreams of so called feiends
and neverending lies
she feels so alone
and so out of place
she wants so bad to be loved
and to see a kind face
she dreams of a day
that is filled with light
she dreams of joy
and sweet delight
she wakes to a soft touch
pressing her cheek
she opens her eyes
and tears start to leak
not tears of pain
but tears of happiness
for she has finally found love
in all of this mess
now she is free
from everything cruel
because you were there
my dreams have come true
yes, so there they are...
anyhoo. we have a four day weekend. so we had friday off and we have tomorrow off too. score score! i spent friday night camping with john valerie and brad at the top of joesephs driveway, joe would have joined us, but his mom wouldnt let him, but he came up at like 7:30 and woke us all up, then got in valeries sleeping back, lol. it was good. we, more like I, took down the tent and rolled up the sleeping bags before the rain started. anita, joes mom, made us pizza before we left. then we went to nick and nates to pick up anthony and drop off brad. then we went to penn valley to chelsea's house so john could do some stuff. then his mom showed up there, god i dislike that woman! so after that we went to the penn valley park, and then we went to johns cuz he had to go home. so me val joe and anthony went to my house and hung out there for a while. then joe and anthony had to leave. it was a good day. except the whole john not calling me that night or today. so today i did chores, tomorrow i will do chores, and if im lucky, somebody will rescue me from boredum tomorrow night!