..so depressed..
..okay, so his mom wants to play this game, then we will play this game, let her get mad about the damn cell phone, she didnt have to pay for it, but she did..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Blake only told her, so where she would be aware of wat was going on, not for her to pay the bill.. maybe i should just pack my things and leave, everything seems to be falling on me, im not the one who decided to go add amy to the cell phone account, im not the one who told blake, that i needed to be added to his phone line, that was his doing, i only supported it..
..to me, this is all stupid, she wants us to learn a lesson, then consider the lesson to be learned, i hate to say it, and i know that blake will read this, but ya know wat..!!!!!!
..YOUR MOTHER CAN BURN IN HELL FOR ALL I CARE..!!!!!!!!!!!!
..im the one busting my ass off to bring in the money, while she takes you to detroit, so why should i be a part of this anymore..???
..i have been doing alot of thinking lately, and part of me says just leave Heather, dont stick around, and wait for his mom to turn on you, and dont stick around, and wait for his mom to turn him on you..
..then the other part of me is saying, if you really love him, then you will work all of this out..
..thats the question, do i love him as much as i think i do..???
..Wake up Heather, no one wants you around, maybe if you would have stayed at job corps, non of this would have happend..??? yeah sure, then blake and i would not be together, and certain people would have left me.. kinda like they have now.. i have no friends, im just friends with myself.. sometimes i wonder, if people only say they are my friends because they feel sorry for me..
..yeah thats it, who knows, blake could only be with me, and saying that he loves me, because he feels sorry for me..god only knows, how many times i have heard that from people, and thought that, and it turns out being true..
..who knows, that might be why he plays games alot, cuz im no fun anymore, or im not wanted anymore..
..i was thinking today, that maybe i will go move in with my friend from work, she has a 2 bedroom apartment, and its close to work, and it would get me away from all this.. rent is cheap where their at, i would only have to pay $260.00 or work somthing out with them, utillites are already paid for..
..maybe i will do that while he is gone.. maybe not..
..i dont think that im going anywhere for thanksgiving as it is..
..Look at yourself Heather your caught in the middle of a family desbute..one in which you started.. you need to leave Heather, you need to give him his life back, go leave and never look back..tell him its over, tell him that you will never forget him..tell him your sorry that things did not work out, tell him goodbye..
..i have put up with so much from his family, it seems like the only ones that ever excepted me, was his grandparents..
..its your fault that everythings the way it is Heather, dont go blaming it on someone else..YOUR TO BLAME HEATHER STOP COMPLAING, AND JUST KILL YOURSELF ALREADY.. thats wat the voices in my head are telling me to do right now, i have no one to talk to, and no one to go cry my eyes out to..
..im fighting the tears as much as i can right now, i still have to beg or trick him into touching me, maybe my time here is done with, maybe we just wernt ment to be..
..im going to bed now, if i awake in the morning, i will try and post, and if i dont post, then well yeah..
..GoodNight..
~Heather~
..to me, this is all stupid, she wants us to learn a lesson, then consider the lesson to be learned, i hate to say it, and i know that blake will read this, but ya know wat..!!!!!!
..YOUR MOTHER CAN BURN IN HELL FOR ALL I CARE..!!!!!!!!!!!!
..im the one busting my ass off to bring in the money, while she takes you to detroit, so why should i be a part of this anymore..???
..i have been doing alot of thinking lately, and part of me says just leave Heather, dont stick around, and wait for his mom to turn on you, and dont stick around, and wait for his mom to turn him on you..
..then the other part of me is saying, if you really love him, then you will work all of this out..
..thats the question, do i love him as much as i think i do..???
..Wake up Heather, no one wants you around, maybe if you would have stayed at job corps, non of this would have happend..??? yeah sure, then blake and i would not be together, and certain people would have left me.. kinda like they have now.. i have no friends, im just friends with myself.. sometimes i wonder, if people only say they are my friends because they feel sorry for me..
..yeah thats it, who knows, blake could only be with me, and saying that he loves me, because he feels sorry for me..god only knows, how many times i have heard that from people, and thought that, and it turns out being true..
..who knows, that might be why he plays games alot, cuz im no fun anymore, or im not wanted anymore..
..i was thinking today, that maybe i will go move in with my friend from work, she has a 2 bedroom apartment, and its close to work, and it would get me away from all this.. rent is cheap where their at, i would only have to pay $260.00 or work somthing out with them, utillites are already paid for..
..maybe i will do that while he is gone.. maybe not..
..i dont think that im going anywhere for thanksgiving as it is..
..Look at yourself Heather your caught in the middle of a family desbute..one in which you started.. you need to leave Heather, you need to give him his life back, go leave and never look back..tell him its over, tell him that you will never forget him..tell him your sorry that things did not work out, tell him goodbye..
..i have put up with so much from his family, it seems like the only ones that ever excepted me, was his grandparents..
..its your fault that everythings the way it is Heather, dont go blaming it on someone else..YOUR TO BLAME HEATHER STOP COMPLAING, AND JUST KILL YOURSELF ALREADY.. thats wat the voices in my head are telling me to do right now, i have no one to talk to, and no one to go cry my eyes out to..
..im fighting the tears as much as i can right now, i still have to beg or trick him into touching me, maybe my time here is done with, maybe we just wernt ment to be..
..im going to bed now, if i awake in the morning, i will try and post, and if i dont post, then well yeah..
..GoodNight..
~Heather~