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Everytime it seems like I make any momentary happiness it gets crushed. For example, yesterday I went to go and visit my grandmother and my aunt in Crowley. I had a perfectly nice time, but in the way home, somehow the idea of mortality popped in my head. So for like 50 miles I was alone with my ideas of mortality and the enivitable passing of my grandmother. Which made me reflect back to the visit as now bittersweet. And then today, a pretty good roomie day even with a little bit of shopping until my rookies drops a bomb on me. She tells me that in the near near fututre she and him will be moving in together. She tried to play it off as just a future idea but she and I both know its more than that, its her way of warning. She does this from time to time, when she does not know how to tell me something. She just bluffs it out and then tries to cover it up. It is a very cruel thing to do, she knew I would react well to something sudden. Now I am faced with a possible 6 months maybe a year at most or maybe even less. Thanks......