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--i wrote this in my private diaryland, thought i would share--
I have to write down all my good feelings so i can look back on my optimistic views when i'm down in the dumps again.
first off, Keep Fising by Weezer is a good song and also Interpol- Obstacle.
Well, i was thinking. I shouldn't be sad. After i got out of the shower i was looking at my body and, damn it, i've been working hard on it and it looks good now. I don't have to take addy to starve myself to be skinny. Now it's all natural and when i so starve myself, these days, i loose the tone in my stomach when i tighten it and it doesn't make me feel good. Though, i need to cut back on the sodium (salt) because i look a little bloated. Well, let's see what else do i have to be optimistic about:
-Well, Jade's party which i think won't be that bad. I'm supposedly getting OCs sometime this week, but i don't trust him, i have to test them out in his house with him before i make the deal. I'll take one before Jade's drink a tiny bit and it'll be a blast. I don't want to get drunk or wrecked i just want to loose all inhibitions.
- I finished my outline and citations and i think i did a very good job on it. I'm so glad it's all done
- My mom waxed my legs and stomach so they look very nice. My legs are the thinnest and most toned i've ever seen them. God, i love working out.
- People really do care about me, but the way i portray myself, bitching all the time and being sad draws them away because i know if i were in their shoes i wouldn't want some depressed person hanging around me. This is why, if you have noticed, i've been trying to keep negativity away from me. And when i feel the need to bitch and complain about the same shit i always do i just turn away. That is why, Nell, that one day at study hall when i turned from you it was because i didn't want to start ranting.
- Being pot free on the weekdays has made me complete my homework right when i get home, and my mom is never worried about me. So, now, she's super happy because she has a husband who she loves and her daughter is well behaved and gets good grades. :)
that's it.
I've realized that i've been a very honest person latley. I think it's because i'm still in the process of quitting smoking. (oh yeah, i cheated today, i had one, damn addy!) So quitting smoking is not hard, my "withdrawl" symptoms before when i tried was all mental. Now that i really don't want to be a smoker it's very easy.
Okay, this entry is very boring, it you're still reading, i applaud you. You truly love me. Leave me a comment if you read the whole thing lol.
Well, my thoughts have run out. I have to call Gianni. Hope you enjoyed the long entry!
Oh yeah, i had detention after school today. Nicole decided not to show up and now she's going to tell Eadie that her grandfather was dying and she's writing a note and stuff. She's just going to have to make it up later, she really should have just gotten it over with today. I really don't understand her actions.
Okay my hand hurts from typing so hard i'm out yo
I have to write down all my good feelings so i can look back on my optimistic views when i'm down in the dumps again.
first off, Keep Fising by Weezer is a good song and also Interpol- Obstacle.
Well, i was thinking. I shouldn't be sad. After i got out of the shower i was looking at my body and, damn it, i've been working hard on it and it looks good now. I don't have to take addy to starve myself to be skinny. Now it's all natural and when i so starve myself, these days, i loose the tone in my stomach when i tighten it and it doesn't make me feel good. Though, i need to cut back on the sodium (salt) because i look a little bloated. Well, let's see what else do i have to be optimistic about:
-Well, Jade's party which i think won't be that bad. I'm supposedly getting OCs sometime this week, but i don't trust him, i have to test them out in his house with him before i make the deal. I'll take one before Jade's drink a tiny bit and it'll be a blast. I don't want to get drunk or wrecked i just want to loose all inhibitions.
- I finished my outline and citations and i think i did a very good job on it. I'm so glad it's all done
- My mom waxed my legs and stomach so they look very nice. My legs are the thinnest and most toned i've ever seen them. God, i love working out.
- People really do care about me, but the way i portray myself, bitching all the time and being sad draws them away because i know if i were in their shoes i wouldn't want some depressed person hanging around me. This is why, if you have noticed, i've been trying to keep negativity away from me. And when i feel the need to bitch and complain about the same shit i always do i just turn away. That is why, Nell, that one day at study hall when i turned from you it was because i didn't want to start ranting.
- Being pot free on the weekdays has made me complete my homework right when i get home, and my mom is never worried about me. So, now, she's super happy because she has a husband who she loves and her daughter is well behaved and gets good grades. :)
that's it.
I've realized that i've been a very honest person latley. I think it's because i'm still in the process of quitting smoking. (oh yeah, i cheated today, i had one, damn addy!) So quitting smoking is not hard, my "withdrawl" symptoms before when i tried was all mental. Now that i really don't want to be a smoker it's very easy.
Okay, this entry is very boring, it you're still reading, i applaud you. You truly love me. Leave me a comment if you read the whole thing lol.
Well, my thoughts have run out. I have to call Gianni. Hope you enjoyed the long entry!
Oh yeah, i had detention after school today. Nicole decided not to show up and now she's going to tell Eadie that her grandfather was dying and she's writing a note and stuff. She's just going to have to make it up later, she really should have just gotten it over with today. I really don't understand her actions.
Okay my hand hurts from typing so hard i'm out yo