Oh what will I do when they're gone...

Jun 06, 2005 01:03

"They're not really your friends. They're just your classmates. Once you're in college, you'll forget about them."

I don't know whether I want to forget or not... or whether I should forget or not.

I only know of one thing that's true in my life-- it's that I'm destined to be with her. I'd give it all for her.

Mmmmm... sweet puberty. It'll make you. It'll break you.

To tell you the truth, I don't care if anyone's reading this or not. There are some people who I care about. The others, to put it simply, I could line up against a brick wall and shoot them one by one in the head. I simply don't care for their existence or for anything concerning them.

"You're a cold person. Cold as snow."

I like snow. It's not that I hate them or anything. It's that I'm afraid; I'm afraid because I don't know what's going to happen later on in life. I don't know who will be there. I'm not one who likes flying solo (all the time). I need allies to depend on.

My family might move to Texas. To state the truth, I'm rather indifferent towards the subject. Whether we move or not is not so big a deal. Palm Coast REALLY sucks anyways. It's one of those places where you first enter and are all happy because it looks like a GREAT PLACE, but then your ass finds out that it's as boring as a preserved mouse in a shoebox.

Being an atheist, I'm pretty distraught because nobody really knows what happens when you die. I don't believe that you go to 'heaven' or 'hell'. Reincarnation (as another human being) is easier to believe than that shit.

I'm going to marry her, but I'm afraid of what will happen when I/we die. Unity, devotion, passion... and most importantly love... "If you ever die or if I find out that you've died, I'll kill myself just to be with you." That's a promise I'll never think against keeping.

...to be continued... whenever I can get my thoughts straightened out...
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