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wow, been a while since i updated...whats up gang?
i just watched million dollar baby... good movie, but there were a couple problems i had with it:
first of all, Clint Eastwood was given the academy award for best supporting actor, but i dont think he did that great of a job. He did an excellent job directing and hilary swanson was terrific, as was the movie... but clint wasn't that good. also, the score wasn't spectacular, especially for a movie like that, but really, whatever.
my dad just got home. i have been clean for a while at my parent's and my new psychiatrist's request... and i'm happy. my dad smelled like weed when he walked in... my parent's suck.
my license test is tuesday. i hope i pass. i can't believe my parent's let me keep the ppointment, but my second permit expires wednesday, the day after my license test.... talk about pressure. but i still can't believe they let me keep my appointment, especially after i took the car out and got caught by the police again. that was a couple weeks ago. i didn't really tell any of my friends because i was ashamed. and i didn't want lectures. i know it was stupid, i don't know why i did it, i don' know whats wrong with me. am i just acting out? am i just being a typical teenager? no, a typical teenager would have stopped after the first time his parent's caught him, or at least after the first time the cops caught him. but no, i got caught twice by each and i still took it out a bunch of times. i'm turning 18 in december and i still dont have my license... its fucking pathetic... god, i can smell weed even now. i feel like crying because i'm so ashamed. i tryied to open up to my new psychiatrist, he's a cool guy, but i can't.. its hard for me to open up, so i hope pople read this... but im glad im sober...
im getting back into shape after missing a season of volleyball, i have been running every morning up magee, down summit and then around back through corte madera (the street near my house) and up magee to my house... its a good run. volleyball was insane.
i got new covers to the air things on my tires, they're chrome skulls, they're pretty cool, i like them. i hope i pass my test, the only practice i have had driving really in the past eight months was at one in the morning so i have my work cut out for me. my mom will be at work that day so mike is gonna drive my mom's car to novato for my test and then back... god i hope i pass, i need to pass.its not even that i really want to pass, i fucking NEED to pass.....
When you are old and gray and full of sleep,
And nodding by the fire, take down this book,
And slowly read, and dream of the soft look
Your eyes had once, and of their shadows deep;
How many loved your moments of glad grace,
And loved your beauty with love false or true;
But one man loved the pilgrim soul in you,
And loved the sorrows of your changing face.
And bending down beside the glowing bars
Murmur, a little sadly, how love fled
And paced upon the mountains overhead
And his face amid a crowd of stars.
-W. B. Yeats
i just watched million dollar baby... good movie, but there were a couple problems i had with it:
first of all, Clint Eastwood was given the academy award for best supporting actor, but i dont think he did that great of a job. He did an excellent job directing and hilary swanson was terrific, as was the movie... but clint wasn't that good. also, the score wasn't spectacular, especially for a movie like that, but really, whatever.
my dad just got home. i have been clean for a while at my parent's and my new psychiatrist's request... and i'm happy. my dad smelled like weed when he walked in... my parent's suck.
my license test is tuesday. i hope i pass. i can't believe my parent's let me keep the ppointment, but my second permit expires wednesday, the day after my license test.... talk about pressure. but i still can't believe they let me keep my appointment, especially after i took the car out and got caught by the police again. that was a couple weeks ago. i didn't really tell any of my friends because i was ashamed. and i didn't want lectures. i know it was stupid, i don't know why i did it, i don' know whats wrong with me. am i just acting out? am i just being a typical teenager? no, a typical teenager would have stopped after the first time his parent's caught him, or at least after the first time the cops caught him. but no, i got caught twice by each and i still took it out a bunch of times. i'm turning 18 in december and i still dont have my license... its fucking pathetic... god, i can smell weed even now. i feel like crying because i'm so ashamed. i tryied to open up to my new psychiatrist, he's a cool guy, but i can't.. its hard for me to open up, so i hope pople read this... but im glad im sober...
im getting back into shape after missing a season of volleyball, i have been running every morning up magee, down summit and then around back through corte madera (the street near my house) and up magee to my house... its a good run. volleyball was insane.
i got new covers to the air things on my tires, they're chrome skulls, they're pretty cool, i like them. i hope i pass my test, the only practice i have had driving really in the past eight months was at one in the morning so i have my work cut out for me. my mom will be at work that day so mike is gonna drive my mom's car to novato for my test and then back... god i hope i pass, i need to pass.its not even that i really want to pass, i fucking NEED to pass.....
When you are old and gray and full of sleep,
And nodding by the fire, take down this book,
And slowly read, and dream of the soft look
Your eyes had once, and of their shadows deep;
How many loved your moments of glad grace,
And loved your beauty with love false or true;
But one man loved the pilgrim soul in you,
And loved the sorrows of your changing face.
And bending down beside the glowing bars
Murmur, a little sadly, how love fled
And paced upon the mountains overhead
And his face amid a crowd of stars.
-W. B. Yeats