WOw... it's been sooooo long!

[crazy_arms_4]

Man i dunno why i don't write here anymore.... it's not like i don't have anything to say because there's a hell of alot on my mind lately... liek ALOT. and i don't think people realize just how many things i'm stressin over.. it's not all about a certain guy situation... honestly that's not my main concern. But i feel like i'm sufferin in silence... i've changed a bit and now i seem to stay more calm and stuff when i really want to break down, yell, spaz, etc. I guess i sort of keep things more inside now because no one seems to listen when i have something to say and the ones tht do listen well usually they don't understand or there's also teh peoepl tht say they undersatnd and then i trust and then they go and betray me somehow.... In a way i want this school year to be over with so i won't have to see half these peopel tht i call "friends" but really aren't. and yet i'm completly scared of bein alone without anyone not even my mommy next year at Moncton and for 4 more years after that.... it's tough. Anywayz... i've been writtin in my MSN blog more often then here so here's the link and that's where it talks mostly about what's goin on. http://spaces.msn.com/members/natanya24/
i'll try to update more often.... i'll TRY!lol
Buh Byes
Xo'z