Sep 23, 2004 21:46
Ok, well, I've been really upset this week.
No, I don't still like Joe. No I've never had sex with Joe. No, I'm not obsessed with Joe. And no I'm not trying to break Joe and Maria up. So I really wish people would stop spreading around rumors that I'm doing all of those things because I haven't. In fact, I practically hate the guy now. And I hate the fact that he and his girlfriend are spreading around these rumors because Maria and Joe are "well-known" and have a lot of friends so they all know and so random people who I don't know and a bunch of football players are asking me about this stuff or telling me they heard something about it. It's really starting to make me mad because I've done nothing wrong... I just got the shitty end of this. Joe did wrong, but he and Maria worked it all out and all is happy with that. I got lied to, led on, and now I'm getting rumors spread around about me.
I hate Humble and everything about it. There is nothing good here and I can't wait until I get to leave and go to Seguin for Texas Lutheran University and start over in the middle of nowhere with a 1400 population school with absolutely nobody that I know. I'm excited.
So all of that plus the fact that I've gotten like no sleep this year cuz teachers hate everybody on the last week of school.
I just love going to school everyday and putting on a fake smile and acting happy all day because I'm supposed to be the "happy one" and I can't let anybody else down... no matter how much I may be letting myself down. Forget it... I'm gonna go finish up my break down then maybe skip homework and get sleep.
Football game tomorrow... getting home at 1. Waking up at 5 for region choir. No sleep this weekend. Wish me luck for region try outs... I need it. Ok, thanks. Bye
Chelsea