I don't want to...
I don't really want to go into the whole story of what happened with Ben these few days so I will just shorten it. Basically he likes Shawna and has been messing around with me anyway...using me. He says he didn't want to hurt me and he was trying to think of a way to tell me without hurting me. Well, he didn't succeed...I spent Wednesday through Friday crying. Everything is all fixed now. I am not going to see him for a while...we will still talk because I still want to be friends with him...I just can't see him because I will just think of all the lies he told me. He made me feel like a slut because he was thinking about Shawna while he was having sex with me...what a bastard. Anyway. it's all good and I am done crying...I am still hurt, but I will get over it and I will eventually be able to trust him again.
Funny thing though. Last year when he told me he didn't want a girlfriend and then he got with Diana...I found out they were together on November 12, 2003. This year I find out he likes my best friend and has been using me (although he doesn't see it that way) on November 10, 2004 and it doesn't get settled until November 12, 2004. What a coincidence.
P.S. HE CRIED IN FRONT OF ME!!
Funny thing though. Last year when he told me he didn't want a girlfriend and then he got with Diana...I found out they were together on November 12, 2003. This year I find out he likes my best friend and has been using me (although he doesn't see it that way) on November 10, 2004 and it doesn't get settled until November 12, 2004. What a coincidence.
P.S. HE CRIED IN FRONT OF ME!!