hiking up the path to self acceptance.
so in the past week i've learned a lot. i was exposed to lots of people with serious problems with their bodies. i realized i don't really have a problem with my body. its mine, it doesn't really fit how i feel inside a lot of the time, but thats ok. bodies are only bodies. they don't define us. we define ourselves. my biggest problem is not that i'm not good enough or cool enough or just plain enough for anyone else. i am good enough. my problem is just that i don't have the self confidence to claim it and go with it. most people don't know what the fuck is going on, they just don't let anyone in on that little secret. if you say anything with enough confidence behind it someone is going to believe you. even if its a big fatty lie. i've also learned that the world does not talk enough. i know i help keep this trend going, but i'm working on honnesty and openness. and i realized that i know how to do a lot more shit than i think i do...i just kind of pretend i don't and ask other people so that i do shit the way they want it done. i aim to please. i need to aim to please myself more. its ok if i fuck shit up. pretty much everything in this world is fixable. thats my theory. time and honnesty heal most things.