damn.
so i think i've finally gotten used to rejection. i've realized that it happens all the time to me and generally in the same way so i've just got to suck it up and deal. its not like i'm not going to be upset about it at the time, but i feel like my bounce-back time is getting way better. i'd just rather not be there when i'm getting rejected ie watching the person i like hook up with someone else right next to me...but i can work on that. ok yeah whatever i'm still kind of upset. it fuckin hurts to feel someone next to you and know that they're feeling something with someone else and you're just sitting there while it happens. i'm just ridiculous basically. it kind of makes me want to quit rugby. the stupid sport makes me hurt physically, emotionally, mentally, and every other way you can hurt. granted it also has a lot of pluses, but i'm starting to wonder if the pluses really outweigh the minuses. then again rugby is kind of all i have here and i don't know if i have the strength to start over again. we'll see how things go.