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[crazosuspenders]

been a long time i suppose. i got arrested in ocean city and that blew. cops are such dicks. i was in a white windowless room for 18 hours and all they gave me was water, and a hard time. i still like him but he's becoming so needy and codependent...its difficult to take. i think i'll tell him i just want to be friends because i dont think i can give him what he's looking for. i feel like such an asshole though cos i know he likes me a whole lot and i do care about him. but i dont want to lose him as a friend either. god this is entirely to complicated. why cant i just be attracted to him? that would make my life so much easier.

i have to send in my application for community service, hopefully i can avoid jail altogether.

i wish i had a personal advisor.