Laughter (n) : when a smile has an orgasm
basically it is 3am and i cant sleep 'cuz i am flippin' wiredddd so i decided that maybe just maybe id start writing in my lj again...id really like to try and keep up w/ it b/c i decided it would be oh so lovely to just have a nice lil place to put some great memories from my freshman year at college but we'll c how that goes.....
this vacation home from school so far has been pretty flippin' sweet i must say...despite the past week that i spend home and depressed over stupid shit i have had some of the most amazing times w/ the most amazing people...nites like tonite really make me wonder why i get so upset in the first place...what pisses me off most is that the problems i get the most upset about i create for myself...which is pretty flippin' retarded....most importantly i guess i learned a valuable lesson this vacation....that lesson was learning how to let go....as great as memories from the past may be its important to live for the now...the truth is that unlike those memories we savoir for a lifetime the people in them often change...i also learned that things dont always make sense...ive always liked to think that i was some kind of psychological detective or something.. someone who could piece together clues to figure out people and their motives...but the truth is not always do all these pieces fit together just rite...sometimes things can be misinterpretted and that one slip up can just make the puzzle impossible to solve...basically what im trying to say that as much as id like to think that i can understand everything and every1 i cant...and im done trying to do that
so yeah besides those lessons i guess ill talk about my nite tonite because it was random in the most amazing way possible...after chilling at lauryns house for a while we went to pick up nicole...@ her house i hear this weird buzzing noise and i was like "oh that sounds like my vibrator" and then nicole was like "OMG lets go to the sex shop"...first however we needed to go to quiznos though so lau could get some dinner so we harassed the shit out of the guy for some free stuff and danced around the store even though they were ready to close...anywho eventually we got to expressions in patchogue where they have the most amazing selection of goodies if i dont say so myself..teehee...i ended up purchasing these straws that had balls on them and looked like penises and this thing that looks like a gigga pet except its a "grow a penis" which i will def be growing on my desk upon my arrival back at school...after getting the guy at the sex shops number we headed over to yet another sex shop....the ride there was full of chinese firedrills and dancing like idiots b/c well thats just how we roll....we then went to the movies and met up w/ maddie, erika, and the boys...i forgot what movie we saw but basically it was terrible and nobody should see it.....oh yeah it was called hostel and ew it was sooooo grotesque!!!!...after that we were gonna go to the diner but wait we are all poor lil college students so we ended up chilling at maddies house...i dunno theres just something bout the way things are when we are all together...i feel so happy as if i have the whole world in my hands <333 ugh...but yeahhhhh
anywho that was the most pointless entry EVER but im still super wired but i will stop
back to geneseo in 1 week so if i didnt see you yet this vacation you best be giving me a call :P
and a quote that changed my perspective on things ""God is not going to bring the person that you are meant to be with into your life and then take them out just because one of you wasn't paying attention. Some day, some way, it will work out if its meant to be."...which is TOTALLY what my mom has been telling me for the past year or so everytime i cry b/c she mentions his name
this vacation home from school so far has been pretty flippin' sweet i must say...despite the past week that i spend home and depressed over stupid shit i have had some of the most amazing times w/ the most amazing people...nites like tonite really make me wonder why i get so upset in the first place...what pisses me off most is that the problems i get the most upset about i create for myself...which is pretty flippin' retarded....most importantly i guess i learned a valuable lesson this vacation....that lesson was learning how to let go....as great as memories from the past may be its important to live for the now...the truth is that unlike those memories we savoir for a lifetime the people in them often change...i also learned that things dont always make sense...ive always liked to think that i was some kind of psychological detective or something.. someone who could piece together clues to figure out people and their motives...but the truth is not always do all these pieces fit together just rite...sometimes things can be misinterpretted and that one slip up can just make the puzzle impossible to solve...basically what im trying to say that as much as id like to think that i can understand everything and every1 i cant...and im done trying to do that
so yeah besides those lessons i guess ill talk about my nite tonite because it was random in the most amazing way possible...after chilling at lauryns house for a while we went to pick up nicole...@ her house i hear this weird buzzing noise and i was like "oh that sounds like my vibrator" and then nicole was like "OMG lets go to the sex shop"...first however we needed to go to quiznos though so lau could get some dinner so we harassed the shit out of the guy for some free stuff and danced around the store even though they were ready to close...anywho eventually we got to expressions in patchogue where they have the most amazing selection of goodies if i dont say so myself..teehee...i ended up purchasing these straws that had balls on them and looked like penises and this thing that looks like a gigga pet except its a "grow a penis" which i will def be growing on my desk upon my arrival back at school...after getting the guy at the sex shops number we headed over to yet another sex shop....the ride there was full of chinese firedrills and dancing like idiots b/c well thats just how we roll....we then went to the movies and met up w/ maddie, erika, and the boys...i forgot what movie we saw but basically it was terrible and nobody should see it.....oh yeah it was called hostel and ew it was sooooo grotesque!!!!...after that we were gonna go to the diner but wait we are all poor lil college students so we ended up chilling at maddies house...i dunno theres just something bout the way things are when we are all together...i feel so happy as if i have the whole world in my hands <333 ugh...but yeahhhhh
anywho that was the most pointless entry EVER but im still super wired but i will stop
back to geneseo in 1 week so if i didnt see you yet this vacation you best be giving me a call :P
and a quote that changed my perspective on things ""God is not going to bring the person that you are meant to be with into your life and then take them out just because one of you wasn't paying attention. Some day, some way, it will work out if its meant to be."...which is TOTALLY what my mom has been telling me for the past year or so everytime i cry b/c she mentions his name