swimmers ear in the winter.
today i felt like crap when i woke up so my mom brought me to the dr and the most exciting thing of the week happened..yeah i got swimmers ear in the winter..so odd...the only thing more entertaining than that this week was watching a racist bugs bunny movie in US..otherwise the week is kinda just going...not good not bad and for once im ok with this nice equilibrium..which is odd for me but im learning to cope or at least trying to...things have been really sketchy in my house though..first off this week it was discovered that my lil brother is a porn addict which is disguesting and i rather not disguise ne furthur...additionally ive come to realize that my parents arent as happy as i had always thought they were..until this weekend when my mom mentioned something bout kicking my dad out of the house i had thought that they were still as in love with each other as they were when they met back in middle school..apparently they r not and now im beginning to notice it more...today when i was home my mom had like a mental break down and i must say it scared the living crap out of me...she was like talking to herself but it sounded as if she was addressing sum1 which makes me think maybe she is skitzo..who knows...she was talking bout how much she hates my dad and plans to kill my brother...i felt the biggest knot come over my stomach..seriously the more i realize that the world isnt as perfect as i had always thought it was the more stupid i feel for once thinking that it was so simple..i want my bubble back haha...hmmm i started reading a book today as well..its quite depressing considering the fact that the gurls mom has died, shes bulimic, she cuts herself, she has sex with strangers etc etc..but at the same time its quite witty which is awesome...hmmm yeah wat else...i wish my relationships with certain people could be stronger or as strong as they used to be..erika is my best friend in the entire world and sumtimes i feel like i dont even kno her and i wish i did..i feel like a shitty friend cause of this..i also feel guilty for the way ive treaten sum1 lately its just sumtimes people get on ur nerves and its easier just to walk away from the situation...hmm everything with scott is good ...6 months is in 2 days...i cant believe we made it that far...i erally hope he likes his gift cuz i put alot of effort into it.....and y eah im gonna stop writing cuz im boring myself...peace <3