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i decided to go to the mall on friday. to see my lover amy. though i didnt hang out with her because it was a bad night and everyone kept running around and i had to babysit them basically cos theyre too stupid to figure where the hell they each were 1/2 the time..
but i saw brian, and chuck. and michael. and chucks friends with this guy.. who had these piercings all over his face.. and that guy was with the most beautiful boy ive ever seen in my entire life. its so hard to describe, but he was beautiful. and everyone thinks im crazy 'cos i think so. but maybe theyre juss too ignorant to notice? he had these gorgeous eyes, and long black hair.. and yep. he was amazing to look at. but i didnt talk to him, becos im apparently too immature?
i slept at michael-jons that night. becos my exgirlfriend made me. i juss wanted to walk around nashua. but nobody would let me. it was an odd night, and jon-michael, mikes bro, fought me to sleep with a pillow. hmph.. i have big plans next friday. quite the emense speach to give before i follow through with my plans aswel.
and i broke up with josh.. and we both cried. and i realized that i never know just quite what im doing. but i do know one thing for sure. i play mindgames hardkore to the major.
everyone says that since the 1st day i began goin with josh, ive changed. and not in a good way. and they say hes been killing me, and hurting me. physically and mentally. and i dont quite agree. its been me thats been doing the killing..
destroy to create, and i believe i fell off when the destruction was complete..
ill update about it later. i have to go to baileys house for a few becos he decided to wake me up..
but i saw brian, and chuck. and michael. and chucks friends with this guy.. who had these piercings all over his face.. and that guy was with the most beautiful boy ive ever seen in my entire life. its so hard to describe, but he was beautiful. and everyone thinks im crazy 'cos i think so. but maybe theyre juss too ignorant to notice? he had these gorgeous eyes, and long black hair.. and yep. he was amazing to look at. but i didnt talk to him, becos im apparently too immature?
i slept at michael-jons that night. becos my exgirlfriend made me. i juss wanted to walk around nashua. but nobody would let me. it was an odd night, and jon-michael, mikes bro, fought me to sleep with a pillow. hmph.. i have big plans next friday. quite the emense speach to give before i follow through with my plans aswel.
and i broke up with josh.. and we both cried. and i realized that i never know just quite what im doing. but i do know one thing for sure. i play mindgames hardkore to the major.
everyone says that since the 1st day i began goin with josh, ive changed. and not in a good way. and they say hes been killing me, and hurting me. physically and mentally. and i dont quite agree. its been me thats been doing the killing..
destroy to create, and i believe i fell off when the destruction was complete..
ill update about it later. i have to go to baileys house for a few becos he decided to wake me up..