since california thinks i need to write more
well looking back on how i thought my life after college would be like, i realize how wrong i was. i had these big plans - living in boston in a great apartment, having a job that i would love forever the day i graduated, buying a new car, traveling more - but none of that has happened. quite the opposite i guess.
i moved out of my fantastic apartment in may, due to a lack of job, money, and fighting among roommates. but living at home hasn't been as bad as i thought, since i'm pretty much left to my own. but i will never consider this house my 'home', that was in stoneham and gone forever. i left too much behind there to ever be able to say that home is woburn. david's not here and we left him back there. no, this will never be home for me.
it surprises me everyday that i graduated over 2 months ago and i'm still pretty much without a job. but, at the same time, its exciting. i get to have a real 'summer vacation', a first since starting high school. besides jamaica, which was pretty much amazing, i haven't done too much though, which is very unlike me. i am going to be hopefully heading down to new jersey to visit with chris before he leaves for a year in china next week, but then its august and the summer is almost over. then what?
if this job doesn't work out with brandeis, i might just start looking at other places around the country. i mean, if i don't pick up and go now, will i ever? will i ever be able to be like chris and go to a foreign country for a whole year without knowing anyone, just because it's something i've always wanted to do? i don't know. i have been saying that i am going to return to africa and do something with myself, whether it's volunteer at the HIV/AIDS clinics or like beth was considering, work on a farm for a couple months. it all sounds amazing, but could i ever do it? we will just have to wait and see won't we.
i moved out of my fantastic apartment in may, due to a lack of job, money, and fighting among roommates. but living at home hasn't been as bad as i thought, since i'm pretty much left to my own. but i will never consider this house my 'home', that was in stoneham and gone forever. i left too much behind there to ever be able to say that home is woburn. david's not here and we left him back there. no, this will never be home for me.
it surprises me everyday that i graduated over 2 months ago and i'm still pretty much without a job. but, at the same time, its exciting. i get to have a real 'summer vacation', a first since starting high school. besides jamaica, which was pretty much amazing, i haven't done too much though, which is very unlike me. i am going to be hopefully heading down to new jersey to visit with chris before he leaves for a year in china next week, but then its august and the summer is almost over. then what?
if this job doesn't work out with brandeis, i might just start looking at other places around the country. i mean, if i don't pick up and go now, will i ever? will i ever be able to be like chris and go to a foreign country for a whole year without knowing anyone, just because it's something i've always wanted to do? i don't know. i have been saying that i am going to return to africa and do something with myself, whether it's volunteer at the HIV/AIDS clinics or like beth was considering, work on a farm for a couple months. it all sounds amazing, but could i ever do it? we will just have to wait and see won't we.