Emo Moment
Im supposed to be pumped and ready to "shake that ting like a city of sin" yet I sit here on the verge of tears. Everything turned to shit and I have NO clue how to fix it. and Im suppose to be the "Go To" girl. I thought I could handle the Nuclear destruction of everything around me but thats just another one of life's bitch slaps. The One thing I wanted to be apart of and totally envied has deteriorated, with no sign of recovery. MY best friend is just....I cant even explain it... I cant help! which is like that worst! I mean their just comes a point when you like just cant do anything but say "Dont let it bother you that much" and I cant even say that sentence anymore. I just want her to enjoy her ....last months here and I cant even do that. their is so much Ive realized I cant do and its beating the shit out of me. All the problems of all my friends are coming to me and I'm out to lunch.IT'S SO FRUSTRATING! I cant tell anyone anything, not even my mom. Once again the pains of being an Only child. I just want people to talk to each other, they dont have to be Nice to eachother just tell them how they are feeling!! Not me! I mean I love you, yes but I can only do so much! Just take me to a place where Hormonal teenagers dont exist!! Take me back to the planet I came from cuz Im sure as hell that it wasnt suppose to be like this.