Dec 04, 2003 19:06
3L's dat neva should be mix'd in a relationship....life can be s0o depressing at times...why do we make life worse for us?...why do we keep livin a lie....a lie dat keep get'n worse day by day then g0in for the betta....
esp day life i live as a h.student/big sista/helper/babysitta/hard wurka/friend/a person dat you can always u can count on....
i can list on..s0o many wurds dat can fit my description...
but i dun go wit life and subdue myself to crying....unlike the few of many peoples out there in the world ((sry if i offend u))but dis is sumthin dat i take in and try to make me stronga....i have no use for cryin' nemore....ther is no use for it in sadness....its jus a waste of bodily fluids.
i feel s0o much for my moms..she's givin me and my sistas 18yrs of her life and now she wants her life back for her own and she can't all b/c of "the man she married".....the man im not ashamed to call my father...but at times he jus needs to go away...sumtimes i believe that our family can be betta off witout him....but we love him s0o
i want my mother to smile of joy for xmas....how can u buy that???? thas sumthin you can't..u jus simply cant....and i would put my life for her...she's done s0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o much and all my sistas and i could NEVER replace....how do u do it? how can u make a person happy again..while her life she knows it..seize to exist...
no tears can make me cry for my moms pain...wow...what can i do?...what can make life rite again....easily said "seperation..away..lost..divorce"
thas my moms life, love, and lost....
the thought of bein seperate from my sistas are horrible..but then the thought of my parents get'n a difforce...but if its sumthin that would satisfy my moms content..then let it s0o happen...this will jus give my mother to get tha strength bak to get on wit her life...
life, love, lost
--Today's Quote--
"you don't know my name"