Weight
its funny how people can go from loving you to hating you in 2.5 seconds
:)
anywho im fat. dont say no youre not cause in my mind i am. According to my BMI or BMP or w/e the hell it is i am way over. and its my own fault.
No self control. i rely on pills to make me not hungry and thats just not healthy. Its because when i dont take them or make myself so depressed about my body that i wont eat,I binge. I know, i know, use self control. buuttt i'm my mom and dads daughter. my brother is the same he just doesnt gain anything . We live to eat NOTeat to live. I hate it! Inside I'm a thin chick.... I know about hair and make up.... I sort of know fashion. I'm pretty to a point. I deserve to fit into what i want to, and dance without wondering if i bend over will i look fat orrr sitting at a school desk thinking do i need to pull my shirt out more so no one sees a little roll . I cant hack it. I spend every minute of everday...even in my dreams...thinking about being thin. Its horrible. But i can't help it.
and by hook or by crook. Even if its torture im losing 30 pounds before school starts again. ill be 130-125 a normal weight for a girl my age. but then i wont stop there.
I sort of wanna do the school swim team but class act is my number one priority...
dont say to me.... you look fine or youre beautiful. Yes i know im beautiful. But my body isnt
You cant say it would be pleasant to see me in a skirt or a bikini. or a tight dress.
thats going to change
period
no matter what i have to do
This is my obsession. Has been since 3rd grade. When i got fat. It'll never stop. Always be there.
I want to run around and not worry if i look fat doing it. that i have to pull up my pants cause of love handles
or not fit into a costume
i dont want huge boobs and a round butt.
I just ant to be like most of the other girls. ill always have curves which is great but this isnt curvy. this is just irresponsible
:)
anywho im fat. dont say no youre not cause in my mind i am. According to my BMI or BMP or w/e the hell it is i am way over. and its my own fault.
No self control. i rely on pills to make me not hungry and thats just not healthy. Its because when i dont take them or make myself so depressed about my body that i wont eat,I binge. I know, i know, use self control. buuttt i'm my mom and dads daughter. my brother is the same he just doesnt gain anything . We live to eat NOTeat to live. I hate it! Inside I'm a thin chick.... I know about hair and make up.... I sort of know fashion. I'm pretty to a point. I deserve to fit into what i want to, and dance without wondering if i bend over will i look fat orrr sitting at a school desk thinking do i need to pull my shirt out more so no one sees a little roll . I cant hack it. I spend every minute of everday...even in my dreams...thinking about being thin. Its horrible. But i can't help it.
and by hook or by crook. Even if its torture im losing 30 pounds before school starts again. ill be 130-125 a normal weight for a girl my age. but then i wont stop there.
I sort of wanna do the school swim team but class act is my number one priority...
dont say to me.... you look fine or youre beautiful. Yes i know im beautiful. But my body isnt
You cant say it would be pleasant to see me in a skirt or a bikini. or a tight dress.
thats going to change
period
no matter what i have to do
This is my obsession. Has been since 3rd grade. When i got fat. It'll never stop. Always be there.
I want to run around and not worry if i look fat doing it. that i have to pull up my pants cause of love handles
or not fit into a costume
i dont want huge boobs and a round butt.
I just ant to be like most of the other girls. ill always have curves which is great but this isnt curvy. this is just irresponsible