so my life goes like this...
i wake up in the mornings and i hurry to get ready for school and i arrive at school where i study and learn, and then after school generally i either go to physics help or home to do some chores and my homework... or i go to dance practice. after that i talk to my sister and my parents when they get home and i eat dinner with them and i go back up to my room to do some more hw or surf the web or listen to music or watch tv or read a book or paint something... and then i take a break and maybe call nicole or ashley... and then i get online to talk to people and finish up hw and i either talk to my boyfriend online or over the phone. i shower and play with my doggy and then i usually go to bed a little before 11, but i decided i need more sleep so i am not too tired to wake up in the mornings so i need to be in bed by 10:30.
ta daaa! my day. i don't have many friends anymore this year... i guess it's ok. less christmas shopping i have to do. it's not that my friends don't like me anymore or vice-versa, it's just that it's obvious that we don't have much time for each other anymore or otherwise we would be making efforts to see each other more. i personally don't have time... for instance, this weekend i am babysitting friday night, have dance practice saturday morning, am working saturday afternoon, babysitting saturday night, hw sunday and hopefully a couple hours at the mall with paul chung, and then babysitting saturday night. my weekend usually goes somewhat like that... either working or babysitting 1 or 2 nights, and then either doing hw or trying to spend as much time as i can with my boyfriend as possible since i don't see him during the week.
i wish there were more than 24 hours in a day, but it just isn't so. so i don't have much time for friends, but i've come to realize that it isn't affecting me a whooole lot, just a little because i miss them. i'm ok. i'll be fine. i'm not saying i will stop trying to get together with people, i am just saying that my life shouldn't dwell on it. junior year is tough, and i am working on getting my grades really high for college and studying for my exams and the SATs... my life has become somewhat like nicole's. it's alright though. won't kill me.
just a little wounded, that's all. i mean, it's even ok that i know that not that many people read my journal entries much anymore... i feel like everyday i am learning from people and doing things more for learning's sake then to impress people. that's the way it should be anyways.