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So my head and heart seem to be waging war on each other and I can't decide who's winning the war. My heart aches because I feel like I may have screwed up a good thing. But my head keeps screaming I need to run far far away. I feel so lonely. so much so that I physically ache to be hugged. to be touched. I physically need to be in the embrace of someone I trust with my whole heart. I feel like a fish out of water just flopping around. Lance is not the answer and the longer this drags on the worse I seem to feel. I'm not so sure Craig is the answer either. I mean after 1 date I felt like I was being bulldozed and forced to get in over my head. I truly believe at the heart of the matter he's a nice guy, and I don't want to hurt him. But those feelings. is it just me being fucked up in the head? it scares me that the past is rushing up on me and I can't outrun it. It terrifies me I have all these feelings and I can't put a name to them.
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