fuckin bitch
my mom..... last night i asked her to stay home n watch movies wit us.. she's always complaining dat when i ask her to do somethin iz spending money... well, i rented em n she was like ok i'll stay home wit u n watch movies. well, she calls while we're gettin pizza n shit n she's like dan might b comin over 2. i was like no u'll ignore me n i won't b able to cuddle wit kris her n i never get to spend dat much time together n e more n blah blah n she's like well i'll jus go over to his house then. i was like well either way u're gonna ignore me so i guess it jus doesn't matter does it. i told her i was sick yesterday morning n i was havin trouble breathing. well, when she came home from his house i was outside cuz i couldn't breathe n i was hyperventilating n shit n she was jus like iz cold out here n walked past me. i was fuckin in tears n it didn't matter to her. all dat fuckin matters to her is her bf. n then she got ready for bed n was gettin ready to go to bed n came over n tried to kiss me so i pulled away from her n buried my head in krissy's lap. fuck her she's gonna ignore me n choose her bf over me n then try to kiss me n act like she loves me no fuck dat bullshit she chose how iz gonna b she chose who she loves. she has a serious prob wit only bein able to love one person at a time. thas how iz been my whole life. it was always either me or christa. unless she had a bf n well, ta-da she has a bf. almost every day i wish somethin serious would happen to me n i end up in the hospital or somethin so maybe she'll realize dat her kids r posed to b more important than some asshole n i told her dat. she's like i do realize how impoertant u r n went to dan's house. ya she really shows it. n e wayz. the apt's comin along well. my bro's still staying wit us, we have furniture. MEL N ROSIE'S WEDDING'S COMIN UP!!!!!!!!! i can't wait omg they're so cute together. :D december 7th ppl will c me in a tux. thas a new one. lol. i've only wore a tux once n dat was for a church play. but i had long hair then. i have it on tape to prove it. lol. jus dunt tell n e one. :P well, imma go find somethin to do to keep my mind off my bitch of a mother. have fun all! luv ya!