new goals
i had a horrible night last night. fell asleep around 1am and awoke shortly after a nightmare and felt like i was hyperventilating. tried to wake up my baby, but she kept falling back asleep. i was sooo scared. before the night was over i had two other very vivid nightmareish/disturbing dreams. i was planning to get up today by 10 so that i could finish writing my assessments for work. failed. felt too sad to get out of bed. my head was pounding and all i wanted was more sleep. i finally got out of bed at 11 when my baby called to cheer my up. in the shower i realized that i have some new goals to work on....
if you are ever around me, please remind me and pester me about these.
1. limit of 3 caffeinated beverages per day. this includes pop, coffee, and tea. i have been drinking insane amounts of caffeine and practically no water... my head has not been liking me lately. also, it may have some effect on dreams??? anyone know about that?
2. remember to take medication EVERY day... no exceptions. i will set me alarm on my phone for 1230 and will take it when the alarm goes off. i must also eat a small snack if i have not eaten lately.
3. i will put in extra hours catching up with my paperwork at cch. i have fell behind, and although no one has seemed to notice, it makes me feel terrible about myself. this is not the kind of worker i want to be. i will try to catch up on some notes at home... maybe while we are watching our nightly comedies, as we seem to do every night. :)
those dont seem too hard, do they?
in other news, i am so incredibly in love. this is neverending and so exciting. my brain cannot stop smiling.
okay, back to work!
cc